Dream Like New York

Who: Rose and Angel Shaw
What: Growing family
Where: Maternity Unit, Mount Sinai
When: Monday evening

As luck would have it, Angela went into labour and gave birth to little Elliott when Rose was having a break in her chemo. It was still ongoing, but she was one of the fortunate ones that it was a low dose, spread out over time. They were getting results, and she just had to keep on going with it. Cancer didn't just disappear overnight. What it meant was that she was well enough to come visit the baby, and she didn't want to wait any longer. Because he was premature, they had to keep him in a little longer than a general newborn. But that was okay, he was in the best hands he could be.

Using the brief window of opportunity with Rose and Angel arriving, Beau and Austin were taking a quick dash home to shower before they were coming back. They were allowed to stay with him because of the circumstances. Angela was still in but would be going home the following day, so Rose wanted to drop in to see her before they left. It couldn't be easy what she was going through.

Daisy had fallen asleep in Angel's arms on the elevator ride up to the Maternity floor. She hadn't wanted to go into her stroller from the car and the only way they could stop a scream-fest was Angel nursing her. She hadn't taken a nap that afternoon, so she was grizzly and cranky. Angel was just carefully putting her into the stroller to tuck her in. Rose was at the newborn's crib in a flash, tenderly scooping him up into her arms with a grin. "Aren't you the most beautiful little man in the entire world?" she cooed. He was so tiny. She had to remember this couldn't make her clucky.

I've been Beau-ified.

Who: Rose Shaw and Will Jackson
What: Heart-to-Heart
Where: Oncology Unit, Mount Sinai
When: Tuesday morning

There was going to be no waiting. Rose had her appointment with Tara that morning, first thing. It had been a real slog to get Angel up at 7 to be at the hospital at 8, but he just managed. He was looking like hell, but he was there for her. Tara had results from the tests that Haley had already ordered for Rose, and some more from other tests that had been done once the scan was showing up the nastiness on it. Tara admitted Rose to the Oncology Unit straight away, and she wanted her in surgery later that afternoon. There was no sense waiting if Rose was confident in her decision here.

They were taking it all. Rose was pretty sure the best way to tackle this was to not give her time to think on it. She was terrified. She didn't want to have just her ovaries taken, and the results of that coming back saying the cells had spread so they had to go in to take it all anyway. What was the point in that? It felt like it would delay things, and Tara absolutely confirmed that any waiting on something like this afforded a risk of spreading. If they did the first surgery, and realised they needed the second, the cells could already spread to the lymph nodes to her stomach, to any of that, and it would be way more serious. Doing the total hysterectomy now, it would capture any tumours already there and any tumours potentially left by a smaller surgery too.

Angel was just not coping, though. He was exhausted and Daisy had been screaming the place down. Rose called Austin and asked him to take Angel and Daisy home for a few more hours sleep, and they could come back before Rose went into surgery. There was no point them all there waiting things out. When you were a wife and mommy, you didn't stop being just that if you were dealing with other stuff. It was only a few hours. Hopefully she wouldn't completely lose her shit in the meantime.

Being a people person, she waiting until they got her into a gown and hooked her up to pre-surgery fluids to keep her hydrated while she had been fasting, and she went to find Billy and Ajay in the chemo wing. She sat with them and chatted to Ajay while poor Billy slept. He had the look to him Beau got when the chemo started to wreck you to the point it took longer and longer to bounce back. But Ajay seemed optimistic that after this final month, Billy might get his own remission gold star.

Then it was time for Billy to go home, and he was so sick. Rose had experience taking care of Beau after chemo, but it was quite sobering for her to realise there was a chance this might be her soon. If the surgery didn't cockblock it ending up in other parts of her body. Being alone then, she nearly folded and called Austin to bring Angel and Daisy back to her.

That was what she was about to do making her way back to her room pushing her IV pole. But she passed the room across from her and not meaning to be nosey, she glanced in and stopped, doubling back. "Will?"

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Fuck this

I don’t like this feeling. The one that feels right down deep inside places in your heart you didn’t know existed. The fear that you’re never going to feel okay again. I’m not unhappy. That’s never been the question. Ever since I met Angel, I’ve been happier than I ever thought a human could be. He’s the most beautiful person I’ve ever met, and he wanted to marry me. Sure, we took our damn time getting there, but life has a way of throwing up these roadblocks in front of you. Maybe we need those to remind us how priceless and cherished love and family should be.

( He’s a beautiful daddy to our little girl too... )

Who: Rose and Angel Shaw
What: Honeymoon, and stuff
Where: Tampa Bay, Florida
When: Very early Sunday morning

It had been a week now since Rose's miscarriage, and an incredibly emotional one at that. Probably the most emotional week of her entire life, and therefore exhausting. The wedding had been on Friday, and it was now Sunday. Friday evening, they had flown down to Florida with Rose's parents and spent the night at the Gresham family home in Jacksonville. Rose was up all night talking to her mom about everything, and touching on the miscarriage because she had been struggling to talk much about it. She had needed that time with her mom, but Angel had still another surprise up his sleeve yet.

The afternoon before, they hired a car and drove to Tampa Bay where he had a beautiful modern beach house awaiting them for a honeymoon. Maybe it wasn't usual practice to bring a child along for a honeymoon, but Daisy was with them because neither of them would have it any other way. Besides the fact, this soon after the miscarriage with complications, Rose couldn't have sex. That didn't mean they hadn't done other things their wedding night just because of how much they needed to show their love to each other, but the rest of it would wait until she was ready.

It was very early Sunday morning now, and Rose was standing out on one of the balconies wrapped in a soft silk bathrobe watching the sunrise. She had a lot on her mind, and while she watching and let everything mull over in her head, she was absentmindedly brushing her thumb over her wedding ring, adjusting to how it felt on her finger.

Wedding song ♥

Rose Gresham added a Life Event from 15th May, 2015 with Angel Shaw

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"When did the rain become a storm?
When did the clouds begin to form?
Yeah, we got knocked off course by a natural force
And we'll, we'll be swimming when it's gone."
• Beautiful Goodbye, Maroon 5

Rose knew she was one of the luckiest chicks in the whole world. She didn't just have an amazing fiancé who was gorgeous, talented, and treated her like she was a princess, but she also had two honorary brothers in Beau and Austin, who shared the massive loft apartment with her, Angel, and their baby daughter, Daisy. Maybe it was a bit of a crazy, unconventional family construction, but she wouldn't have it any other way. Which is exactly why she knew deep within her heart that she had to be Austin and Beau's surrogate when they wanted to have a baby. They would make just as amazing fathers as Angel was.

( What it culminated in was a surprise first Mother's Day party for her, under the guise of being a birthday party for Daisy... )

♥

Okay, so I either ate the most out-of-date Thai food last night... or I'm preggers.

Someone's hair's grown back blonde, curly and adorable :D

Who: Rose Gresham, Angel Shaw, Beau Watson-Shaw and Austin Watson-Shaw
What: Let's talk about... babies
Where: @ home
When: Friday evening

Rose had spent the day shopping her heart out with her sisters to try to finish her Christmas shopping. It was Daisy's first Christmas, and the baby girl was going to be spoiled to the max, without a shadow of a doubt. Rose came from a huge family, and Daisy was the first grandchild, though their parents had adopted little Ciaran as one too because it was uncertain whether Julie and Euan would be able to have any of his own. He had frozen his sperm before he started chemo, but with Julie having had a bad miscarriage, nothing was certain. Life was never certain. They had all learned that the very hard way, but they were more than welcoming a lovely, celebratory Christmas now that Beau had gone into remission and he was back home with them.

Beau, however, had never had the chance to freeze his sperm. He had just been a boy the first time he fell ill with leukemia, so it was never a consideration. Recently, though, it had come to light that he wanted children and Austin wanted them too once he knew Beau wanted them. It had lead to Rose valiantly offering her uterus to them as a surrogate with a donor egg (Austin was Angel's brother, so they didn't want to complicate anything by Beau and Austin's child being Daisy's biological sibling). Nothing had been set in stone, and things had gotten hectic when Angel was studying and rehearsing for the charity Christmas show which turned out to be a nightmare with what happened to Lance.

They had finished dinner, and Jesse, who had been here for the duration of the afternoon helping Beau with showering, medication, feeding, had left for the day to go back home to Jace and his family. Daisy had been fussy so they ordered takeout instead of worrying about cooking. She was now bathed and dressed for bed, but it was a little too early to put her down when she was fussy like this because she wouldn't settle. Beau was sat in one of the recliner seats of the sofa in his pyjamas wrapped in blankets while Austin and Angel argued back and forth about what movie to watch.

Rose came into the living room nursing Daisy, who was in her new jammies after spending the day in Uncle Beau's choice of outfit. She handed her to Angel, who wrapped his arms around her and gave her a kiss. "I have a better idea. Let's talk about babies," she said, taking the remote off Austin and turning the volume on the TV down a little. "All cards on the table, or Daisy will be in her graduation robes before it comes up again and I'm not getting preggo when I'm fifty."

Angel's CFS has kicked him hardcore in the butt today and he's barely functioning, so time to get my Supermommy outfit on. If anyone is feeling charitable, I could really use a hand with a few things today. I'm looking at you, billion and one brothers and sisters I have who live in the same city.