"He ain't heavy, he's my brother."

[musicsavesmysoul]

Who: Damien Larson, Jesse Hartley, Liam Morgan and Merlin Blake
What: Wading through the rubble
Where: Mount Sinai, NYC
When: After this and this

Damien was rubbing his forehead so roughly that he was chafing the skin and making it sting. His phone was gripped in his other hand, waiting for news. Any news. It didn’t matter now what it was, he just wanted to hear something. He and Jesse were alone in Merlin’s empty hospital room, waiting for him to be brought back from surgery. Jesse was pacing back and forth in front of the window, biting his thumbnail. Damien had to stop watching him because it was making him dizzy and his stomach hurt more than it already was. It felt like they had been waiting forever.

They traded off with Merlin and Damien's mom and dad over who should stay with Brandon in the ICU and who should wait here for when Merlin was brought back to the ward. Things were bad. They were as bad as they fucking could be. So bad that he and Jesse had been so stressed, they had a huge argument after Merlin was taken to surgery for the bone marrow harvest and to fix his broken wrist that he could barely speak to tell anyone what happened. And he and Jesse hadn’t had a fight like that since Damien fucked up and let Merlin down when his undiagnosed depression got in the way and made him ruin everything.

( Even now, he was barely even sure what they were fighting about beyond clashing over Merlin’s intentions with that Instagram post... )

LOG, COMPLETE