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May. 29th, 2016
"When I look into my nephew's eyes..."
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breakableheartsWho: Sam and Justin Campbell with a side order of Dad
What: When the going gets tough, you still have to uncle
Where: Older Children's Unit, Mount Sinai
When: After THIS
Despite the fact Sam had been feeling shellshocked, numb, and alone, ultimately, there was someone more important in all of this than how he was feeling. Justin. His beautiful, yet damaged, nephew who needed more love than he would ever understand he deserved. It was common place now that Justin tended to hate being in the hospital after his suicide attempts. It was like shackling him to a strong reminder that he was sick and not normal. This time, there was no choice but to keep him in. He had an infection in his blood, that had come from an infection somewhere else in his body. He had been ill, but didn't recognise the good from the bad because he had become acclimatised to feeling poorly. Sam's heart felt like it was broken, and in a way he wasn't sure he had really felt before. Justin nearly committed suicide in front of him, and as well as the same pain they all felt with his previous near-misses, Sam suddenly felt like his own life had a big hole in it...
It had opened the healed over wounds inside of losing his own three unborn babies.
He just hadn't said that to anyone. He knew it was low down on the priority, all things considered. And he was more than okay with that. He expected to shake the grief once it crept back inside him. He really thought he had peace over it all, thinking of it as a 'not meant to be' sort of thing. Apparently life and death was never as simple as that. Apparently the near-miss death of your brother's beautiful son was a stark reminder of these things.
He knew he had to go see Justin. Only, when he got there, Mark met him in the hospital corridor and said Justin had passed out in the Rainbow Room in the middle of all the kids. Instead of the sick little munchkins getting freaked out, however, Justin came-to with a little guy who worshipped him as an idol hugging his arm, rubbing his chest and telling him it hurt less when you were sleeping. Justin ended up finally crying over what he had been through, and most of the staff were crying too. Justin was put back to bed and didn't want to see anyone. Mark said he and Gen were trying to respect that for him for a little while, but thought that seeing Sam might help, considering he had been there with him through the worst.
Justin wasn't sleeping when he got there, but he looked wrecked. His iPad was lying on his chest, and he had his earbuds in, probably listening to music to help him. It was his best form of therapy. When he saw Sam, he took the earbuds out. Sam gave him a soft smile and went over to sit on the side of his bed. "I love you, mate. I'm glad you could stay with us. The world wouldn't be the same without you."
What: When the going gets tough, you still have to uncle
Where: Older Children's Unit, Mount Sinai
When: After THIS
Despite the fact Sam had been feeling shellshocked, numb, and alone, ultimately, there was someone more important in all of this than how he was feeling. Justin. His beautiful, yet damaged, nephew who needed more love than he would ever understand he deserved. It was common place now that Justin tended to hate being in the hospital after his suicide attempts. It was like shackling him to a strong reminder that he was sick and not normal. This time, there was no choice but to keep him in. He had an infection in his blood, that had come from an infection somewhere else in his body. He had been ill, but didn't recognise the good from the bad because he had become acclimatised to feeling poorly. Sam's heart felt like it was broken, and in a way he wasn't sure he had really felt before. Justin nearly committed suicide in front of him, and as well as the same pain they all felt with his previous near-misses, Sam suddenly felt like his own life had a big hole in it...
It had opened the healed over wounds inside of losing his own three unborn babies.
He just hadn't said that to anyone. He knew it was low down on the priority, all things considered. And he was more than okay with that. He expected to shake the grief once it crept back inside him. He really thought he had peace over it all, thinking of it as a 'not meant to be' sort of thing. Apparently life and death was never as simple as that. Apparently the near-miss death of your brother's beautiful son was a stark reminder of these things.
He knew he had to go see Justin. Only, when he got there, Mark met him in the hospital corridor and said Justin had passed out in the Rainbow Room in the middle of all the kids. Instead of the sick little munchkins getting freaked out, however, Justin came-to with a little guy who worshipped him as an idol hugging his arm, rubbing his chest and telling him it hurt less when you were sleeping. Justin ended up finally crying over what he had been through, and most of the staff were crying too. Justin was put back to bed and didn't want to see anyone. Mark said he and Gen were trying to respect that for him for a little while, but thought that seeing Sam might help, considering he had been there with him through the worst.
Justin wasn't sleeping when he got there, but he looked wrecked. His iPad was lying on his chest, and he had his earbuds in, probably listening to music to help him. It was his best form of therapy. When he saw Sam, he took the earbuds out. Sam gave him a soft smile and went over to sit on the side of his bed. "I love you, mate. I'm glad you could stay with us. The world wouldn't be the same without you."
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May. 29th, 2016 09:28 pmthosethreewordsWhen your incredible boyfriend gets up and spontaneously takes the stage at a Shades of Violet benefit in Justin's place in his honour because he can't be there to perform himself — with Cooper Saunders
