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Who: Clint Chevalier and Angela Ashwood
What: Support networks
Where: ICU, Mount Sinai
When: Sunday night
Clint pushed out of the public men's room and he felt his way along the wall to sit heavily on one of the benches near the water cooler. Even the littlest things were taking energy he didn't have. His brain felt like much, or worse, liquid that was going to drip out of his ears and shut him down completely. He could have very much done without cracking his head on the sidewalk when Euan was trying to get him into the car, but when it rained, it fucking poured.
He leaned over, putting his head in his hands to stave off some of the brightness of the corridor of the ICU waiting room. It wasn't directly in the unit. It was just outside with the bathrooms, because the staff didn't need people lingering around unnecessarily. Lingering was often all loved ones could do when their world was bottoming out from under them with someone they loved deeply in grave danger. Clint wasn't coping. It was all so overwhelming. For the first time in his life, he didn't have an answer, couldn't go looking for any, and had no avenue of revenge.
He just had to get out of that room. Sitting looking at Lincoln like that triggered a panic in him that he had never felt in his life. Every passing moment, he was waiting for that machine to flatline or for someone to tell him Lincoln was dead. He wasn't prepared.
What: Support networks
Where: ICU, Mount Sinai
When: Sunday night
Clint pushed out of the public men's room and he felt his way along the wall to sit heavily on one of the benches near the water cooler. Even the littlest things were taking energy he didn't have. His brain felt like much, or worse, liquid that was going to drip out of his ears and shut him down completely. He could have very much done without cracking his head on the sidewalk when Euan was trying to get him into the car, but when it rained, it fucking poured.
He leaned over, putting his head in his hands to stave off some of the brightness of the corridor of the ICU waiting room. It wasn't directly in the unit. It was just outside with the bathrooms, because the staff didn't need people lingering around unnecessarily. Lingering was often all loved ones could do when their world was bottoming out from under them with someone they loved deeply in grave danger. Clint wasn't coping. It was all so overwhelming. For the first time in his life, he didn't have an answer, couldn't go looking for any, and had no avenue of revenge.
He just had to get out of that room. Sitting looking at Lincoln like that triggered a panic in him that he had never felt in his life. Every passing moment, he was waiting for that machine to flatline or for someone to tell him Lincoln was dead. He wasn't prepared.