The whole surrogacy thing had left Angel exhausted. He had agreed to it because he knew Rosie wanted it, and he did want Austin to have a child if that was what he and Beau wanted. But it had been extremely stressful for him to have had Rose exposed to that level of pain, and to see how hard the pregnancy had been on her. Now, perhaps, there was a reason why for all that, but it didn't make it any easier. He had been doubting very much whether he could have tried a second go with the IVF and surrogacy attempt, because he had now become so protective of Rose and didn't want to expose her to that all over again. But they just all hadn't had a chance to discuss it in length. It took Rose a little while to get back on her feet after it. Not physically, but emotionally. Now, he was beyond exhausted. He could feel the fatigue burning through his bones, hanging heavily in his head, making his head and eyes hurt. If this was any other time, he would be in bed and dead to the world. It just couldn't happen at the moment. He put the water down on the seat beside him and leaned over so he could nurse his head in his hands.
"It's too quick." He wasn't even sure what he meant by that, but it felt like it was all happening on fast-forward and his brain wasn't working to catch up. He didn't at all doubt that he could take for Daisy on his own, and he would do it unconditionally, but the thing upsetting him the most was that Rosie was the last person who deserved anything like this to be happening to her. She was so beautiful and selfless. She sacrificed things so she could help others. Hell, she had even stopped breastfeeding Daisy way too soon so that she could begin IVF treatments for Beau and Austin. Now what was all that worth? Nothing. She couldn't give them a baby, she couldn't have another baby for them either, and there would be an indefinite period of time that her mommy ability would be restricted. "She's got no time to understand this or adjust to it. It all has to happen now, and it's going to hit her later when she's weak, in pain, and upset again. I'm supposed to be protecting her from this stuff. I'm her husband."
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"It's too quick." He wasn't even sure what he meant by that, but it felt like it was all happening on fast-forward and his brain wasn't working to catch up. He didn't at all doubt that he could take for Daisy on his own, and he would do it unconditionally, but the thing upsetting him the most was that Rosie was the last person who deserved anything like this to be happening to her. She was so beautiful and selfless. She sacrificed things so she could help others. Hell, she had even stopped breastfeeding Daisy way too soon so that she could begin IVF treatments for Beau and Austin. Now what was all that worth? Nothing. She couldn't give them a baby, she couldn't have another baby for them either, and there would be an indefinite period of time that her mommy ability would be restricted. "She's got no time to understand this or adjust to it. It all has to happen now, and it's going to hit her later when she's weak, in pain, and upset again. I'm supposed to be protecting her from this stuff. I'm her husband."