"I don't think any of us are emotionally equipped to confront the awful possibility that this could signal the end of Justin's dance career or what's even supposed to happen if it does. Catastrophising anything pre-emptively won't help anyone, least of all Justin because he has overcome things in the past he probably shouldn't have even survived. It's just hard to be positive and hopeful. The thing is, I know Jus would be fighting all this with any iota of strength he has left but he has none because he's crushed about Sash. No one can tell him if it's going to be okay or if he should keep trying to hang on. Sash might not regain this portion of his memory, though. Then because he's brain-injured, he might not be the person Justin fell in love with anymore and that means he might not fall in love with Justin. Jus know this and there aren't enough words to describe how painfully heartbreaking it is to lose someone who is still there physically but you've lost them in mind, heart, and soul. I think Sparky feels he's too inadequate to help Jus through this and even if we can rationally know that it's his mind playing tricks on him - and Sparky even knows it - that doesn't prevent him feeling it. That's what mental illness is. The best analogy I've ever heard is if we're mentally unwell, that it's like our own brain gaslighting us all the time in varying degrees. I've been thinking about that a lot since we finally deduced Sparky has bipolar too. Genetics. Both my biological parents died from cancer. Hell, it's how they met, having chemo together. You're right, I think I just got a bit carried away last night. There's usually something I can do to help my family, but this time, there's fucking nothing." Alec gave a resolute shake of his head. "But on the upside? It forced us to have shit out finally. You called me out, just like you bloody well should have. I've been a fucking dick. We should never have broken up. If we hadn't, you wouldn't have gotten sick. Even then, I should've been with you when you did. I should've been taking care of you while you were ill and recovering. You've got to be feeling like I'm incapable of listening when you need me to the most. Or like I hear everyone else but you... and I'm so sorry for that."