After he put his cup down again, Kade shifted to lie down on his side facing Alec. This time, he didn't hesitate in touching him, brushing his fingers through Alec's hair and then caressing his cheek. "That's not what I'm doing. It's not about needing you to explain, even if that definitely helps to alleviate my fear that we were doomed to ever co-exist amicably. I'm just trying to remind you that it's okay for you to be vulnerable too and it's okay if you're not okay all the time because you're family needs help. You're there for them when they break, so I'm here for you. Not to judge you getting pissed as a fart or having a random fuck while you were. I don't care about that. It's not like I thought you'd be celibate without me. I'm sick of fighting against you, Al. Nothing's ever felt natural about that. I don't have all the answers. Fuck, I don't even want all the answers. I want us to take time to figure them out together, over time. I just hope you know it's okay to be scared about all that with me and that you can talk to me about it when it gets too much. Even then, I don't need you to be fucking perfect at it, either. In fact, I think, as a psych, you're probably going to suck at it for awhile. But this time, rather than pulling the plug, let's just keep going? Come here..." He took Alec's cup from him too, putting it next to his own, and coaxed Alec to come lie in his arms. "I don't want to be a reason you're hurting, when everything else in your life is doing that already."