Jesse drew a deep breath and let it out slowly, putting his hand on Jace's arm both in an effort to calm him and in apology. The last thing he wanted to do was get Jace upset when it was never easy for him to regulate his emotions after he'd been having seizures. If that was one thing he and Jace shared with their illnesses, it was that. Jesse's emotions were always raw and fragile when he was recovering from a seizure too. "I'm sorry, baby. I'm not firing on all cylinders today. I promise, I'm not purposefully dodging answering, I'm just a bit slow on the uptake. You're just completely out of it, darlin'. It starts much the same, you check out and most of the time, you still come out of it in a few minutes like usual. You'll be sick and really dizzy, which gets worse if we try to move you too much. Then you'll either come through it and be feeling pretty crappy but just crash out and sleep it off. If it's a real bad one, though, it might happen over and over for a few days. You might be out of it but still really sick because of what's going on in your brain or you're awake but not really. You can't communicate. When you start to come through it, that's when you've been getting upset or angry that you can't communicate and you've been fighting against my help. That gets difficult when..." He hesitated, knowing what he was about to say was one part Jace had always been extremely sensitive and embarrassed about. "When you're incontinent or you can't drink or eat without help. You can't verbalise if you're feeling sick or need to be sick and if you get sick on yourself, you get upset when we have to get you cleaned up, so I try to do all I can to pre-empt what you need. But you're not really there, so I can't reassure you it's okay. Which is all I want to do. But it's not too much and it's not why I'm feeling fatigued. It's just one of multiple things that are weighing on me."

When Jace had his hands to his eyes, Jesse rubbed his back and closed his eyes briefly, feeling terrible he was doing a crappy job reassuring Jace. "Yeah, it can be a lot but it's not too much. It's what we both signed up for when we got married, remember? There were no more words I meant in my life than our wedding vows. I won't censor with you, okay? I'll try to tell you what I'm feeling, I promise. The only thing is, I don't really know exactly all I'm feeling at the moment. I think that's why I'm doing a shitty job relaying it to you. I need rest, that's all. I think we both do. That's all I'm trying to say. Of course I want you to help me and take care of me, but I'm okay. Rest is all I need. Maybe extra cuddles."