dreamlikenewyork | [ TEXT MESSAGE ] To Reecy @ headingforsomething

Sounds serious. Okay, shoot.

Do you think I have what it takes to make a relationship work? Do you think I could pull off taking care of someone who's hurt without fucking everything up?

Sure you do. You just let crap before go to your head but I think you know where you went wrong. Is this Scott?

Yeah, I was a selfish cunt. I would never have come back if I hadn't seen where I went wrong with everyone. Rock bottom isn't a nice place to be but you see what's real when you hit it. Yeah, they're discharging him. But he can't go home to his place alone in case there's complications. Jus said I should offer to take care of him. That boy, I thought he'd hate my guts. Now he gave me a job and is playing cupid for me.

It's true. If it's any consolation, Ky hit rock bottom when you guys ended too. For a lot of reasons, not just your breakup. It's where things with us kicked off. It wasn't a fairy tale romance start. We first slept together when he was hammered and off his face, probably more than he'd ever been in his life. It just happened. Lots of amazing things can start with rock bottom. Don't underestimate it. He had a bleed on the brain, didn't he? We were going to come see him but we knew he'd be swamped with family. You should take care of him, hon. I think he'd like being able to be in his own space while he recovers and it might give you guys private time to find your feet together. Pain and adversity highlights what's real.

Not a consolation, no. I'd never wish that on him and it kills me to know I contributed to that. He was always a rock holding me up. I never returned the favour, I was too swept up in my own shit. I'm glad you were there for him when it happened. I think you guys are incredible together and I'm so happy about your baby news. You must be nearly peeing your pants with excitement! How's it all going? He did, yeah. Had to have surgery to drain it. He doesn't remember anything of the attack. He'll be okay, he just needs time to recover. I want to do it. He dropped a big reveal bombshell on me and I'm worried I'll suck.

Listen, babes, it's not all on you, okay? Things with you and Ky ended. Many relationships do. He told me he'd fallen out of love with you a little while before the ultimate break-up. He was hoping if he tried harder, you guys could make it work. But I know you had a hell of a lot to work on personally, like grief about losing your dad, trying to find your career identity, putting pressure on yourself to better and better and better whatever goal you achieved. You always thought the next thing was IT. We all get lost, make mistakes, end up on paths we're not proud of. None of us are flaying you to the fiery depths of hell for the rest of you're life for your mistakes. And I know for a fact, Ky definitely isn't. He wants us all to get our friendship back on track, just like I do. The question is, with the hard lessons you had to learn, do you want to be Scotty's rock? Many of the most successful love stories are built on foundations of adversity and pain. You won't suck. What big reveal?

Well, the actual pregnant bit is tough because I'm sick and exhausted but on the upside, Ky has Couvades, so I'm not alone. It just feels really right this time and we've had no complications. Baby's as healthy as can be. So far, so good.

Did you intend to make me cry? Because you did. Do you know how much it means to me for you to say all that when I know you don't owe it to me at all. I really do and he's already under my skin and I can't stop thinking about him. Even before he was hurt. I thought it might just be because I'm seeing things blossom between Merlin and Brandon and they're so disgustingly adorable and I want what they're having. Without the cancer, of course. He told me he's always had a thing for me, even back before things started with Kyan and he was with his ex. It wasn't even telling me to get in my pants, it was after surgery drilling into his brain, which okay, I get my throw a question mark over it.

I had to Google. He has a sympathetic pregnancy? Oh my god, if anyone was susceptible to that, it's Kyan. Jus said you guys aren't finding out the gender.

[ TEXT MESSAGE ] To Reecy @ headingforsomething

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