"But please deliver us from hangovers too hardcore."

[intothegroove]

Who: Kyan and Trey Wilson
What: Twinly Confrontration
Where: Campbell Page & Waterston, NYC
When: After this and this

It took Kyan six attempts to get dressed and leave the house. He felt like absolute hell and was pretty sure he hadn't had a hangover this bad since the first time he and Reecy slept together in Colorado. At least then he knew why he had hit the booze. This time, he had no recollection of being with Trey at all so he knew it had to have been some hard shit he was drinking. If shit had gone really bad with Autumn, it would have made sense. The fact Reecy said Trey was in a vile mood meant the drinking was unlikely because of anything to do with Kyan and something pretty intense for Trey.

Despite Reecy's insistence he stay at home and sleep it off (even if she knew it was unlikely), he couldn't rest without giving his brother a good bitching out and demanding to know what the hell was going on. Trey was in a meeting when Kyan arrived at his work probably looking like shit in his worn jeans, DC comics t-shirt, extensively loved Converse and dark sunglasses. Thankfully, Trey's secretary knew him well so had no issues letting him sit in Trey's office and wait. She even pulled the blinds for him so the morning sun didn't laser a hole in his very hungover brain.

He made the mistake of leaning over to rest his arm on the front of Trey's desk and planned to just reat his face into the crook of it while he waited... and promptly fell asleep, completely with snoring, which he only ever did when he was congested or hungover.

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[intothegroove]

Even if it was awkward, Kyan wriggled back into a sitting position so he could sit beside Trey. He patted his shoulder, staying quiet for a little while and letting the silence reign. Sometimes, you needed silence to have space for thoughts. "Why didn't you talk to me about this stuff? Even if the relationship has hit roadblocks and might not get through it, it still has to hurt thinking about him moving home. You guys were really great together when it was working. You were there for me through the whole shit with Autumn. Did you not want to talk to me about it?" He rested his head on the back of the sofa. "An attorney beard? No. Mark wouldn't insult you like that, bro. He gave you this because he knows you're capable and will give this job your all. He knows he can trust you with Justin's deepest secrets, most of which will never be known in the public. Mark has been building a team to care for all of Justin's needs so Justin can have some autonomy over his life as a young adult. He knows there is a lot he'll never manage alone because of his disability but he doesn't need to be coddled either. But I know you've never quite fully accepted Mom's death. You threw yourself into other things rather than grieving. Which sounds like what you might be doing here."

[midnightlog]

"I don't know. I guess I just thought it'd get better when he got home. Plus, I've been so busy coming into the partnership and spending time with Mark to adjust. He wanted to make sure I transitioned smoothly and I've been shadowing him a lot when he's been here. It's not that I didn't want to talk to you about it, Ky. Hell, if I realised before I slept with Ari, I would have. It was only doing that when I woke up to myself to what was happening. Or not happening. And I really don't want to use it as an excuse but Ari and I were sitting down with Justin's files and... there's things I've had to know and learn about him and his past that not even some of the people closest to him know. Because it's sickening and harrowing. He's had more suicide attempts than anyone realises. The way he was bullied back in Chicago. All that shit that went down with the cunt who had the role in the first intake of Footloose cast. It was heavy and I was stressed. Ari was stressed. Sex is sex. Fuck." Trey hadn't felt like he needed alcohol this much in a long time. Fuck being allergic to alcohol. Fuck it in the ass. "But I know I'm going to do a good job with Justin. I feel like it's something that'll really give meaning to my job and I'll learn a lot. I know cheating is horrible and I feel horrible but I can't shake this feeling inside for Ari. I don't even really know what it is."

[intothegroove]

"I know. I do. They think he was attempting suicide or at least self-harming as young as nine or ten. You have to compartmentalise that stuff though, T. Start figuring out ways to do that. Because Justin's case is heavy and you can't debrief with random sex everytime it gets hard. It's going to get hard a lot. It's going to be just like his illness, many ups and downs, most without warning. The thing is, though, if you have feelings for Ari, that's going to change everything. You'll really need to sort it out before you move forward. So, use me as a sounding board. Just quietly. Tell me how you're feeling. What do you think it might be with Ari?" Kyan asked, trying to pre-empt everything in his brain and anticipate how things might look if Trey broke up with Brendan and started dating Ari, but it just made his head ache even more.

[midnightlog]

"Or maybe I'm just better single if I want to focus on my career..." Trey was thinking out loud but if there was anyone he should be able to voice his inner-most thoughts with, it was his twin brother. "Do you think sometimes relationships just wear out? It doesn't really go bad and nothing really changes, but it just kind of mutes to what it used to be. I don't expect you to really have the answers, Ky. We've always been different. You're someone who champions monogamy and commitment. It works for you and you found your soul mate. I can't have feelings for Ari. It'll be too fucking messy and it wouldn't be fair to Justin. I'm pretty sure it's okay from his standpoint. Pretty sure he said he and Trent were open or something along those lines. But I just... we really connected. I can't understand it. We talked as much about ourselves as we did about Justin."

[intothegroove]

Kyan's response was to scrunch his face up, at least contemplating the suggestion Trey was making. "Seriously, though? You'd want to forgo love for casual sex and a career? I'm sure sometimes relationships just wear out, but don't you think you should at least talk to Brendan about it? Sure, he might dump your cheating ass because he might hate cheating. Still, you have to ask why things turned out like this. Look, I know Justin. There's no way in hell he would judge you or Ari if this turned into something. His whole life is messy, he's used to it. He knows people who know people who know people. Our lives are all interconnected. So what? I think you need to talk to both of them. Brendan and Ari. If you want to just focus on your career, fine. But it doesn't sound like you want that."