We're fine, Smooshie. Emotional, but in a good way. Though, I think we both need to go home from a huge nap. You knew about this, didn't you? You little terror.
Sounds like a plan to me. Sash and I are going home to take one together. He was worried he'd freak you both out. But trust me, I've seen his... thingo in action and it can't be explained. He sees things he couldn't know otherwise. Kinda. I knew he had a surprise for you and he wanted me to sing for you, I guessed the rest.
You two doing okay after everything? I haven't had a chance to see you since you got back from Paris. He did, but not in a bad way. How often does it happen with him? I know you wouldn't believe if you hadn't seen it for yourself. You need to understand things to trust in them. You don't think we're rushing into it?
We're better now. Had plenty of rest. He had a nightmare about one of my attempts. One I hadn't told anyone about. A very specific kind. He's had signs from Andi too. It's not there all the time. People who have gone just seem to have picked him to send their messages through. I can't blame them, he's real special. No, I don't think that even a bit. I think you're made for each other.
You guys carry epi-pens now, right? I was so worried about the food. I made them triple check everything. Which attempt was that, Smooshie? Oh you two are just too cute for words. You do? We're polar opposites. But he makes me happy, in ways I've never been before. He gives me hope.
Yep. It's okay. We know the warning signs now. He doesn't want people fussing on it. It was pre-Bondi. Nearly the same night you found me on the bridge. I nearly hung myself in my dressing room but I was interrupted. Plus, don't tell anyone about it. It's hard enough knowing how close it was and that Sasha's seen it in a dream. I was just really sick back then. Hey, I'm an expert on polars, remember. I've not seen you look at anyone the way you look at him. It just wasn't your time until now, you know?
Good. He's not allowed to check out on us right when you've found him. Fuck, Smooshie. You tried earlier that night? I just thought I intercepted an episode. I had no idea. I won't say a word. You've talked to Sash about it, though? And your dad? I think I'm understanding that now. Sometimes, life gives to us exactly what we need when we need it.
Oh, I know. I told him that. He's scared the living shit out of me twice now. I told Andi she can stop testing me anytime she wants to. Yeah, I don't even remember doing the show that night. I guess I was on autopilot. I just remember holding the belt in my hands, pulling on it to the point it nearly sliced up my hands. I had it up there and I was standing on a chair, then someone knocked on the door. That's when I went to the bridge. Everything was just so fucked up. But I hadn't told anyone about that. Sasha just dreamt it one night months later. We talk a lot about that stuff. We have to, so he can care for me. Dad knows now. It does, sis. It really does. And you can't overthink it. Sometimes, it's okay to just be happy and enjoy it. You deserve it. So much.
That's why your costumes changed. I couldn't put my finger on what had changed, but it changed a few months back. No belt. How did he feel knowing he had that, well, vision I guess it is? Will you be my Man of Honour, Smoosh? I can't think of anyone else I'd want.
Belt's gone, replaced with a rhinestone silk scarf. Which meant they had to change my trousers too to something that could stay up without a belt. Sash couldn't cope with the belt after he had the nightmare. I had to come clean to Caden about what I nearly did. He doesn't get why he feels stuff. It freaks him out, but there's explanation for it. It just is what it is. It happened when we were in Boston to visit Andi. I think maybe people who die too soon aren't ready to be just gone for good. Me? You want me? Really?
That's sexier anyway, let's be real. I know Caden would've understood and done whatever he could to help you. What he felt today was really accurate, mindblowingly so. It was a special thing to hear, like we've kind of got their blessing. Really really. More than anything. We're probably going to do it really soon, though, so I don't want to overload you. It's only going to be simple, short and sweet. Neither of us want anything OTT.
You sound like Sash. He's been having kink fantasies about that scarf, and only the scarf, since it came into existence. He did. I mean, it wasn't easy to sit down and face head-on, but we sorted it. I know, it's freaky how accurate he is, huh? He doesn't just turn it on and off at will, it just hits him. He doesn't understand it. I bet it was their blessing, though. Like, I think Andi gave us hers too. She trusts me with him, and that's special. I'm not overloaded. You can't be overloaded by nice things. I need more nice things. When do you think?
Can't say I blame him, Smoosh. Talk about a sexy kink. Might be fun for you to test drive it :D So, no setting up a psychic line and objectifying his empathic skill to make some quick cash? Grief's hard, I know we hold onto a lot of hope they're still with us, but you doubt. At least, I did until Sash came over to us. You're a sweetie, Smoosh. Never change. Maybe, two weeks? Nuts, right?
He hasn't been into kink before. It's hot. He can control it about as much as someone can control a post-nachos fart. Even if he could, no fucking way. No one's objectifying him. I guess you just take from it what you need. Two weeks? Bloody hell. Are you just doing a City Hall thing? You can't do that, you have to make it special. You need to remember it forever.
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