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[artsdesire]

I can't believe he loves me. So fucking proud ♥

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[nessundorma]

I take it you don't know your man has been in Vogue, cugino.

[artsdesire]

Wait, what?

[nessundorma]

[artsdesire]

Oh... fuck.

[nessundorma]

Do we need to leave you at home alone with your hand when we call go to Disneyworld, Nicky?

[artsdesire]

No, you can leave the dancer.

[nessundorma]

I don't think Oakley is going to let Haz ditch Disneyworld. He is counting on the teenagers to go on all the rides with him.

[artsdesire]

You're a cheeky bitch, Matty. Cheyne won't let ME ditch it, he's never been. Are you guys dating?

[nessundorma]

Oakley has not been either. We should make them go on the rides together and take bets on who will puke first. Should we be?

[artsdesire]

You're a cruel man, Matty. Cheyne has been sick plenty recently, he doesn't need that. Only you guys can answer that. But I caught you looking at him over breakfast. I've not seen you look at anyone like that before.

[nessundorma]

He had his appendix out, sì? I look at many people, Nicky.

[artsdesire]

Yep. Let it go just a bit too long and it was badly infected. No, you eye sex many people. This was different.

[nessundorma]

You took care of him? Are you sure I wasn't looking at the crostata alla marmellata?

[artsdesire]

Unconditionally, just like he did for me when I wasn't feeling so hot. You had already devoured that, Matty.

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[nessundorma]

That sounds nice. The taking care of each other thing, not the feeling like shit thing. He asked me on a date. Dancing in Miami tonight. Suggested we could double date with you and Cheyne.

[artsdesire]

I'm pretty sure dancing in Miami is something Cheyne would have no objections to. You're not sure you want to?

[nessundorma]

It could be a fun night. You know I am not opposed to partying. Perhaps just unsure of what it should mean. He is moving to New York.

[artsdesire]

It WILL be a fun night. It is just up to you whether you want it to me more or not. That's good, though you're still undecided if you'll make the permanent move. Are you worried about commitment?

[nessundorma]

More? That's a work-in-progress. He did make me forget I had troubles briefly. A little. If only because I have never done it before.

[artsdesire]

An official date. Spending the night together. That sort of thing. You don't have to commit straight away, Matty. That's the beauty of dating.

[nessundorma]

Did Cheyne ask you on a date, or did you ask him? How did you know it was what you wanted?

[artsdesire]

Cheyne and I hooked up first. We ran into each other in a coffee shop and started to chat because I had very briefly met him at Haz's Joffrey audition. There was chemistry there and we went back to his apartment. He ultimately asked me on the first official date, to watch him perform in Boston. We had the day together before that and went to some art galleries. I knew because when he talked, I didn't want to stop listening to him. I love deep conversations. It's sexy.

[nessundorma]

You are very happy, cugino. I see it. I see the little moments you share. Oakley came to Vegas to see my show. We talked. I told him of my mama. He asked more about her, and talked about his brother. I enjoy his company.

[artsdesire]

I am. Content is something I was doubting I could feel again. That sounds like a pretty deep conversation. You don't have those with a lot of people. You told me that yourself.

[nessundorma]

Has it been hard, with your busy lives and all? No, I don't. I didn't even realise I was opening up to him when we were talking.

[artsdesire]

Not at all. I think that's the part that shocked me the most. Everything before was so much fucking hard work and trying to force it. I was miserable. Well, see, maybe that's something to think about.

[nessundorma]

I cannot do the forced thing. I do not change for anyone. What was it that made you know Cheyne was the right person for you?

[artsdesire]

No one should have to. Two things. He took care of me when I passed out in the middle of the night with a hypo, and how kind and gentle he was with Haz.

[nessundorma]

I am high maintenance. And then some. You passing out with hypos is some terrifying shit, Nicky. Kind and gentle how?

[artsdesire]

Maybe he likes that about you. He jumped right into our nutty family gathering like a boss. Mom was teaching him how to make her tiramisu. I know, and that's how I knew. Harry was never a bother to him being there. He has all the time in the world for him.

[nessundorma]

People like to date high maintenance people? He is a lot of fun, he makes me laugh. I needed that more than I realised. Family first. I understand that very well.