"In a perfect world, Rosie would've been the one to carry our baby for us, to full term, with an easy delivery," Austin replied with a small nod of understanding. "I know she wishes she could've been the one to carry our baby, but if we do this and we end up being parents, Rosie will still be a huge part of that. She's going to be the first woman our son or daughter knows as a role model. People say gay parents prevent kids from having role models of both genders, but that couldn't be further from the truth in our family." He nodded, understanding that this wouldn't just be as easy as telling Rosie that losing the baby and her not being able to try again for them was just no biggie, and everything would be totally fine. He and Beau would never hold it against her, but she'd hold it against herself, and Austin knew that. It would take time for them to move past that hurdle. "We don't expect it to be an easy thing for her to take in," Austin said quietly. He couldn't remember now when he'd stopped referring to himself as much as he referred to a we... and maybe there never really had been a time when Austin's decisions were based solely on himself. He was a we from conception, sharing the womb with his twin, and Angel's presence had always been a deciding factor in his life. Then he'd become part of a we with Beau, and a we that involved Beau, Angel, and Rosie. But ultimately, it was very much a "we" situation. They were all in it together, no matter what that meant for them.
Austin was fretting, and he wasn't trying to, but the fear and nervous energy from his own concerns was amplified by the ability to feel Angel's, too, and he was on edge more than he wanted to be here. "There are always risks with medical procedures," Austin agreed, as hard as it was to say out loud. "It's scary, and I wish I could promise you that you'll be fine the day of. I wasn't. I wasn't fine at all, through any of the procedures or treatments Beau had. But you make it through them with this strength you don't even recognize. I mostly think it's adrenaline. It's the only thing that makes sense. But AJ, we're going to get through this together. Rosie's going to be in the best possible hands with Tara, and you can be sure that any risks will be absolutely as minimal as possible with Tara on the case. She saved my husband's life. I'd trust her with anyone I love. But you're right. It's a huge op. It's a scary one, and it means that your whole lives... a lot of the things you've taken for granted, won't be there anymore. And trust me, I know that isn't easy."
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Austin was fretting, and he wasn't trying to, but the fear and nervous energy from his own concerns was amplified by the ability to feel Angel's, too, and he was on edge more than he wanted to be here. "There are always risks with medical procedures," Austin agreed, as hard as it was to say out loud. "It's scary, and I wish I could promise you that you'll be fine the day of. I wasn't. I wasn't fine at all, through any of the procedures or treatments Beau had. But you make it through them with this strength you don't even recognize. I mostly think it's adrenaline. It's the only thing that makes sense. But AJ, we're going to get through this together. Rosie's going to be in the best possible hands with Tara, and you can be sure that any risks will be absolutely as minimal as possible with Tara on the case. She saved my husband's life. I'd trust her with anyone I love. But you're right. It's a huge op. It's a scary one, and it means that your whole lives... a lot of the things you've taken for granted, won't be there anymore. And trust me, I know that isn't easy."