Reecy was shocked and she actually froze because she was expecting him to stop and remember to push her away when the penny dropped what he was doing. Through this whole thing, probably one of the hardest things for her to cope with was that it felt like he thought she couldn't get it, or couldn't deal with it, or wasn't good enough to. Whilst all around them, there was Billy who had loved Ajay despite his issues and gave Ajay the ability to love him in return. There was Justin letting Will in to love him, and Will knowing that their relationship was just different to other teenagers. There was Lewis being beautiful and falling for Lorenzo despite the pain and despite the fact he was a single father, and Lorenzo letting Lewis into his life without any question. There were all these couples who still worked and had these beautiful things together despite the challenges and emotional struggles. And their love was beautiful and cherished and they worked through the tough bits. That never felt like it even had a chance with Jude to Reecy and because of that, she didn't feel there was a place in his life.

So, there were definitely mixed signals here. When the kiss ended she was looking up at him, because he had quite a bit of height on her. About a foot, give or take. She was looking up at him and met his gaze with a soft, "I don't feel like I'm allowed to touch you in return," she admitted honestly, which was evidenced in how she had kept her hands at her side and hadn't made any move to let her hands touch him like she would have if someone kissed her. There were more than just his issues at play here. There were her insecurities and feeling like she didn't belong anywhere in breathing distance of him after everything. "So, I don't know what's supposed to happen now."