Ajay just shook his head a little. "Oh... no. I don't think Travis and me are to that point by any means yet. I'm not taking anything for granted there. I don't want to just assume anyone will be there. Or hope they will. Besides, he has a really close family, and parents who care, so I highly doubt he'll be anywhere but with them for Christmas. He and I have only had two conversations, so I don't know what's supposed to happen after that. It's still kind of weird for me to know he exists. I just realised I don't even where you're from. You mentioned not being a New York native because you came here when you got my old job. Christmas together sounds nice."

"Like what? Isn't naked the whole aim? Sorry... I've just..." He drew in a breath and let it out quickly. "I spent a long time just not wanting to think about any of this sort of thing. I don't mean for it to come out so blunt and naive. I know the sorts of things you mean. Wouldn't it just be like drawing the short straw, or prick-teasing? Maybe you could show me. If you don't mind if I want to stop..." Leap of faith like whoa, but if the cards were on the table and Billy was okay with being honest here, why not? If he didn't start something somewhere, he knew he never would. If they tried something and he couldn't cope, he would rather address is through therapy sooner rather than later before it turned into another monster in his head.