[ TEXT MESSAGE ] To Riley @ pullmysteth

[sexyinscrubs]

How are you doing, darling?

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[pullmysteth]

Pretty shit. Bed for a month seems like a good option.

[sexyinscrubs]

If that's what you feel you need, there's nothing wrong with that. Trust me, sweetness, I'm the expert on that. Tara's dropping some food over for you guys on her way to the hospital to check in on Beau.

[pullmysteth]

You give me some hope, love. No, she doesn't have to do that! She has her hands way too full already.

[sexyinscrubs]

Some is better than none at all. She's already done it, darling. They're freezable meals and soup. You can eat them whenever you feel like it. I don't you don't feel like it. I know you probably barely feel like moving, but you need to keep taking care of yourself or you'll have all sort of problems. You need to let us help you, my love.

[pullmysteth]

I'm barely keeping water down. Lachie put me back on venlafaxine and valium. And I'm so fucking stressed out. I need to look after Gray first, before anything else.

[sexyinscrubs]

Re-introducing pills and stress isn't going to mix well, darling. But you listen to me. You need to take care of both of you, and he needs to do the same. It's a terrifying and scary time for him, of course it is, but you realise it's not a bad thing for him to see you at your worst, right? I tried to cockblock Aiden with that and it only hurt him. He needs to have that first-hand experience that all this is part of you, and it's part of loving you.

[pullmysteth]

I don't want to inflict it all on him. I'm trying. He wants to know these things and I'm trying to help him get his head around it. It's just hard when we're both not feeling so hot. And what he's going through, is it really far to say "Hey, look at me! Case study on what you've got to look forward to!"

[sexyinscrubs]

Honey, this is not the HIV doing this to you, and you know it. Yes, he's going to feel rough for a few weeks and side effects can be a real bitch for some of us, but what he is witnessing isn't what the HIV has done to you. It's the psychological and emotional scarring. I think he would rather you be taking the meds again and feeling sick that being terrified you're going to hang yourself in the bathroom, don't you think? This is battle for you both to fight. Together.