"Like I've been hit by a Mack truck. I'll take this as karmic punishment." Alec rested his head on Kade's shoulder and took his hand, holding it in his lap. "Sammy froze his sperm, you know. Before he started chemo. He and Alexis had to jumps some massive hurdles together to make decisions they didn't even know they should make when Justin was in a bad way. Which was hard, because when they broached the subject of maybe, possibly, having the option of a kid together in the future, Jus wasn't ready to deal with it. He made it clear he wasn't against it or had any feelings against it, he just wasn't ready to process the thought his mum could have a kid with his uncle and do all the things with that kid he, himself, had stolen from him. He said that wasn't his mum or Sam's burden, it was his and he just needed time. So, when we found out Sammy was sick and needed chemo, it threw it all up prematurely and he wasn't going to do it. The sperm thing, he was going to just write it all off as a missed boat. Alexis said she would stand by him whatever he chose but something like that, it's never that simple, you know? Sammy said they both came to the decision together to do it as a 'just in case'. Which sounds really nice. After you told me last time we were alone together in a room, and probably should've talked more rather than sleeping together, how sick you got and spent a long time in hospital, I haven't been able to stop thinking about these sorts of things and I... fuck, K, I should've been there for you when you were sick. I get why you didn't want me to know but I'll never forgive myself that we weren't together and I wasn't there for you, that you had to go it alone. Like, how are you now with it? Be honest. I didn't know if I was reading you wrong in that you seem tired or maybe even a bit weakened? You were leaning against the wall back in the ER and then you did the same in the elevator up here. While we're having these tough conversation, I want this to be one of them. What was your long term prognosis? Are there any health complications? You're still fit and toned, trust me, I wouldn't have not noticed that. Just because we weren't together, didn't mean I had the power to stop perving on you."