"Really did not need this type of stress relief. Believe it or not, I was only going to have a couple and then head home because we knew they were going to be trying to get Jus up on the parallel bars today. Mark didn't want us all hovering and making him feel pressured but we were going to be on standby in case it all went to shit. He hasn't been doing well since Sash came out of the coma." At first, with this whole splitting hairs mess, Alec didn't see how there was any difference in what he thought happened when they ended and what Kade said happened but now he knew. He did know and he had listened to Kade when they tried to talk after first seeing each other at the hospital weeks ago. But they didn't resolve anything. They ended up sleeping together and it was absolutely about desperately needing familiar comfort. But it was also because he missed Kade and as soon as he was close again, he couldn't resist the pull to him. That's how it had always been with them but sex just complicated the unresolved mess. Nothing Kade had said so far was wrong or inaccurate. "How? Because I'm genuinely at a loss how we could've avoided any of it. I know it was all on me and the situation I was in. Then I was a fucker arsehole because I was angry at you but it was misguided anger. I was just angry at the world after learning the truth about Justin's past. I don't know how to fix any of this, K. The only thing that's changed is my private practice is set up now with some consult work at the hospital. I'm purely a PTSD specialist now. But my family stuff, it's always going to be demanding. That was something I took for granted you'd be a part of." He put his hand over his eyes, wishing he could at least get some relief with this raging headache, if nothing else.