Brandon didn't actually know what to say, despite desperately wishing he had all the right words as soon as Merlin was trying to prompt him to answer. It was probably because he really did not want to fuck this bit up. Merlin wasn't planning on saying any of this, he knew that, but it wasn't strange for his husband to overthink extensively and just throw it all out there when it got to much to sort into compartments in his mind. He pulled himself up into somewhat of a sitting position propped up on his pillows. "No..." He shook his head emphatically, clearing his throat because he knew there was a lot he needed to say but he still wasn't quite there on the specifics. It was so out of the blue and he wanted to support Merlin unconditionally too, just like Merlin did for him, but on this? He just couldn't. Or at least, he really didn't know how to knowing his relapse was why Merlin was feeling like he needed to quit one of the most important things in his life. "I can't back you quitting Footloose, sweetheart. You worked so hard to get there, you're made for that role, Justin adores you as his sidekick in the show, it's everything you want for your career. Don't let me cockblock that. Please, baby. Don't. If anyone's going to quit their job with this, let it be me. If it's too much, then it's my turn to back you. And I realise how fucked that sounds when there's no getting away from the fact I'm sick again and that's going to infiltrate every part of our life but I genuinely mean that if anyone is going to quit their job because of it, it's me. You've put your life on hold long enough for me. I'll quit and it'll solve a lot of problems we're struggling to get our heads around. Maybe it's well overdue anyway. I'm probably just fooling myself I can juggle work and cancer treatment. I just... I don't know who I am without WS. I'm not sure I even know how to navigate peace and privacy without it. You're the most important part of my life. I'll walk from everything to make sure you're okay."