"I know, darlin'. This is on me for being a snappy bitch and taking what you said the wrong way. Nothing you do or don't do can make something like this worse. The only thing I need is you to be there. Unless I'm post-seizure myself and can't communicate, I promise I'll tell you if there's anything specific you can do. There is never a time I want you feeling you can't tell me if you're frustrated or upset your disability. It's disability, not inability. There hasn't been one moment since I met you that I've felt you're unable to help me. You do more reflexively and subconsciously than you realise. There's no one else more able at being my husband than you and I genuinely mean that. This is just not something you've had to deal with before and you always struggle when we're knocked out of our comfort zone because your brain doesn't process new information. It takes time for it to stamp into your psyche. We're kinda in the same boat in that sense because the reason I'm feeling like this is a few different things out of my comfort zone are compounding. Other than what you already do naturally to help, probably the best way is just be a bit more vigilant than we usually are that this might increase my risk of seizures because I'm stressed and rundown. Not to the point you're stressing and no sleeping yourself. You're recovering, you need rest. Promise to let Evan, Christian and Nana help if it comes to that? Only because I know you. If you're feeling insecure, you'll think you need to double down on proving you're capable. We both need a bit more help right now. Are we on the same page with that?" Jesse was holding his gaze so intently and that in itself told Jesse that his husband's mind needed more time and space to process everything in general after he had been sick. Sometimes, they needed to repeat things a few times until Jace calmed down and processed that he didn't need to be in fight or flight mode. "Will it help if I read you some information about compassion fatigue later? What's worrying you the most? I can see it's something."
no subject