"I can understand that anger, darlin'. For all we just get on and deal with it, some days, being epileptic is just the pits. Those are the days we don't feel like looking on the bright side and being reminded how strong we are. I just want you to know that. What ways do you feel like you're getting worse? Maybe it's time to get assessed again. It's been awhile since your last one. Your meds might need some adjusting. This has all been on your mind for awhile, huh?" Jesse kissed Jace's temple and rested his head against Jace's. He wanted to make sure he was navigating this as gently as possible because he could see and hear Jace was struggling with what was on his mind. "Do you not want him to be your doctor anymore? Or consult on your treatment, rather. You can tell him that. He's not going to be hurt if you just want him to be your big brother. I mean, I don't think he'll be able to be fully hands off because him being a specialist means you and I can live as independently as possible. We still need backup when I get sick. But he knows a lot of really incredible neurologists that he would trust to manage your treatment. It really is okay to just need your big brother. I think that's something I've really been learning with Merlin recently."

He always loved these moments where Jace reminded him how insightful he was. For all Jace's brain let him down sometimes, he was observant and empathetic. He smiled with a nod. "They're in the same resting place, you know. My dad and Andi. Real pretty place with lots of trees on the bank of a river. I didn't even realise that until Autumn told me. I only went that once and it felt like I was crashing someone else's private business. I'm not sure I'd even know where to start. It doesn't feel natural to me because I never knew him. I never even talked to the man I thought was my father all those years. He was always cold and rigid, it was never a thing."