Jesse put the bag of takeout on the coffee table and sat down with Jace, turning in towards him to give him his full attention. He feathered his fingers through Jace's hair and then cupped his cheek in his palm to give him another kiss. "'Course I will, darlin'. It's never because I don't want to talk to you and how I'm feeling isn't because you've been out of action. But I get scared when you don't bounce back from the seizures like usual. Just like I know you do when my epilepsy has bad patches. Sometimes it's just really hard to be a nurse when things are happening to the people you love. I know the worst case scenarios and I know that often, worst case things can happen even when things seem to be going along okay. Brandon relapsing is one of those things. I always struggle to sleep when you're unwell, darlin'. Because I've got to help you if you need it. You've needed it. I know you haven't been conscious to a lot of it. You've needed help with the bathroom, bathing, even making sure you're staying hydrated, that you're getting all the medication you need into you. It's never easy seeing you like that." He rubbed Jace's knee because he knew this particular stuff, Jace struggled with being a burden. He never was a burden but he felt it. Jesse didn't like underscoring that for him. Or for anyone he cared for. No person being cared for in a very hands-on way chooses to be like that. "It's the thing with Merlin's biological dad finding him that has really kind of hit hard for me, for some reason. It's stirring up some things I really thought I managed to lock away and bury deep."