Jesse smiled, though he couldn't blame Cillian for the doubts he was having. Anyone in his shoes would be having them. "Of course there's going to be plenty of good but you don't need me as a buffer for those things. It'll mean more to you and Merlin to discover them yourselves together. You're going to need things to bond over and connect with. I'm only here to cushion the impact because Merlin's under the weather and a emotionally frazzled. If Brandon was well, if Merlin hadn't just had surgery, I wouldn't be needing to be here. He would've just taken those first steps himself. I'm just trying to alleviate some of his anxiety, and yours. But the good stuff? That should be discovered slowly and savoured. It's going to be stuff that doesn't involve me or isn't even my business. I actually think Merlin will find a lot of comfort in hearing you're an overthinker too. Just keep yourself in check and keep schooling yourself not to censor with him and avoid things to protect him. From the word go, his brain will be in overdrive trying to form a picture of you and analyse how you fit in his life. Give him what he needs so his overthinking anxiety brain doesn't ty to fill in the gaps with worst case scenarios." He finished his tea and put his empty mug down. "Things are back to normal with Damien. Damien actually married his husband on stage at one of Justin's concerts not long after Brandon pulled through the bone marrow transplant complications. Damien's a typical big brother, extremely protective so he might be a bit of a guard dog when you meet him but he's a marshmallow otherwise. I'd say the Larsons are anxious how this will turn out but all you need to do is make on those good intentions and it'll just be about us all finding a new normal but we've been in protective mode for a long time, so we're well-versed in that. As are you, without a doubt. If you're the same blood group as Merlin, you can always donate blood for Brandon. He'll inevitably need transfusions at some point."