"I guess, in a surreal way, it's a wee bit comfortin' to hear that I'm not the only one who feels like an imposter in this situation. That's prime advise right there, howe'er, Jesse. To not go in with regrets. That's rarely a good thing and I'd say even more so when ya' tryin' to meet ya' kid and form a connection with them. Used to be much better with the overthinkin' before I got hurt. Bloody hell, the poor kid inherits that and ulcerative colitis from us. There's got to be some good that filtered down the DNA to him, aye?" Cillian shook his head, trying to tell his brain not to develop a headache just attempting to wrap his head around all this. He hadn't even met Merlin yet and already, it was an emotional rollercoaster. "I'm glad he had ya', though. And the rest o' his family o' course. Things are good with his other brother now? Are his folks goin' to be okay with this? I'm a stranger, so the hesitancy is understandable but I give ya' all my word that with all the regrets I do have in life, they made me who I am today and I only have good intentions here. I'd never want to hurt him and if it seems like it's headin' that way if it's too much, I'll be on the next flight home. Can't say I even know where to start but I'll just play it by ear and his lead. Just wish it could be in any other circumstances than him bein' unwell and his other half facin' cancer again. I don't know if there's any way I can help with any o' that, but if there is, they just need to say the word."