Cillian was shaking his head as Jesse filled in more puzzle pieces. The mother sounded like a real piece of work and he was glad to hear neither Merlin nor Jesse were in touch with her. "How... does a mother do that to a child? Apologies, you don't actually need to answer that. I'm sure talkin' it out even as surface level is stirrin' up bad memories. It's comfortin' to know Merlin's true family loves him deeply and he had a good life and upbringin'. That's another thing I was concerned about, that my bairn ended up with a bad family and as mistreated. The reality is that he escaped the bad one. I hope the Larsons aren't worried I'm comin' in to stir up shite. Does Merlin listen to you and his other brother? You have a lot o' wisdom and I hope it can help him while I'm here bein' a pain in the arse without an iota o' warnin'. It said online from some unofficial source that Merlin nursed Brandon right through when he was sick the first time. That's incredible for bein' so young."
"He holdin' up, okay? Sometimes the aftermath o' seizures can be as rough as the actual event. I really do appreciate ya' sayin' that. About not bufferin' for Merlin. It means a lot. I'm sure it's as plain as the nose on ya' face, as Granny'd always say, that I have no idea what I'm doin' with this. It wasn't part o' the life game plan at all but it's not like I'm a stranger to unexpected events that change my whole life. I'm tryin' to wing it and it feels like I'm not doin' the best job o' it. The only time in my life I ever came slightly close to fatherhood is when my high school girlfriend fell pregnant right out o' school when she was at uni in Scotland. We were so young, just startin' out in our careers so it wasn't meant to be. Bairns, family o' my own, it was always one o' those things to think about later. But that elusive 'later' that has no real timeframe or plan. I think I just want to ease Merlin into it as much as I can, take it at his pace. I do know o' Justin and a bit o' his story. My mum and sister are dancers, so they're big fans of his work in a technical sense. They've both watch a helluva lot o' YouTube videos o' him dancin'. So, it's safe to say that they were both awestruck to hear Merlin is my son because apparently he's a very skilled dancer too. Even if he has to dumb it down a wee bit in the role, until the end. Assumin' the stage show is accurate o' the movie. Catraoine, my sister, says it is. I'm thrilled I found him. Just tryin' not to get my hopes up on how it'll play out," he admitted with a small shrug.
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"He holdin' up, okay? Sometimes the aftermath o' seizures can be as rough as the actual event. I really do appreciate ya' sayin' that. About not bufferin' for Merlin. It means a lot. I'm sure it's as plain as the nose on ya' face, as Granny'd always say, that I have no idea what I'm doin' with this. It wasn't part o' the life game plan at all but it's not like I'm a stranger to unexpected events that change my whole life. I'm tryin' to wing it and it feels like I'm not doin' the best job o' it. The only time in my life I ever came slightly close to fatherhood is when my high school girlfriend fell pregnant right out o' school when she was at uni in Scotland. We were so young, just startin' out in our careers so it wasn't meant to be. Bairns, family o' my own, it was always one o' those things to think about later. But that elusive 'later' that has no real timeframe or plan. I think I just want to ease Merlin into it as much as I can, take it at his pace. I do know o' Justin and a bit o' his story. My mum and sister are dancers, so they're big fans of his work in a technical sense. They've both watch a helluva lot o' YouTube videos o' him dancin'. So, it's safe to say that they were both awestruck to hear Merlin is my son because apparently he's a very skilled dancer too. Even if he has to dumb it down a wee bit in the role, until the end. Assumin' the stage show is accurate o' the movie. Catraoine, my sister, says it is. I'm thrilled I found him. Just tryin' not to get my hopes up on how it'll play out," he admitted with a small shrug.