There's a reason. I just can't say why yet, Aut. I'm sorry. It'll make sense once we get Merlin home from hospital and I can meet with you guys. Our marriage isn't on the rocks or anything. Not even close. We're just having a rough patch with things out of our control getting in the way and disrupting that rhythm you're talking about.

Yeah, but Justin's perceived 'diva' streak is because he's extremely talented and has a lot of creative control over his work. Which he got to by proving he could walk the walk, so to speak. It's different for me. I have some creative input into the character but mostly, I get the script and perform. Job done. I don't need to be particular or sink extra focus into creating from scratch like Justin does. I have musical talent but I don't write music. Never have. I'm free to be a sarcastic salty bitch when there's something I think doesn't work and it's up to someone else to make the final decisions. The difficult thing is, I'm not the same person anymore that I was before I got cancer and nearly died. Everything in my life is different now. For the better. I'm trying to work out how that's supposed to translate to my work and job. It's proving harder than I anticipated. I'm realising I can't just pick up where I left off. I have to start all over again. I'm not even sure I'm comfortable showing my body on screen anymore like I did but it's in my contract, so I'll have to get my shit together. Why don't you do some bit parts here and there? You're a really talented dancer, you could get work. You should've waste talent like that.