"Yeah, I worry about his awareness campaigning fatigue. Sometimes he can just go at it like the fucking Energizer Bunny but he can give too much of himself. It's been something he's been working on with the psychologist and Ari. He feels like people expect him to be constantly switched on and promoting the causes. At the same time, he's inherently passionate about helping people understand and creating safe spaces for others who have gone through what he has. He just struggles with filtering and channelling. I know, I know... he got it from me. All this, it's going to impact on Sash and his family just as much. Martin's own accident is going to come back up, people will wonder about the level of Sash's injuries. Shit about repeating and all that. We don't know how triggering this will be for them. Or even Sash when he wakes up." Mark dropped his head back against the chair, cupping his palm over his forehead as he tried to figure out what to say. "Sorry. This stuff makes me nauseous when I think about it. It sounded like someone was holding him down and raping him. I noticed he keeps trying to pull the oxygen masks off. I didn't know if it was just reactionary because he was feeling sick but it seems like he's not handling things over his face when he's escalating. Something's triggered. I-- I dunno, Sammy. I just don't want him to end up in a psych ward. He's never been physically incapacitated like this before."
He did try to piece apart what Sam was saying about his predicament but he couldn't follow exactly. "Does it feel weird for you, being his Uncle and Alexis being his mum? I thought we were all cool with that situation. I know Jus definitely was. He made some jokes but I never got a sense it felt strange to him. But it does for you...? You didn't think you could talk to me about it? Sammy, I... that's it, isn't it? You're really conscious Alexis has a child but Justin is always going to just be your nephew. That's so important to you that you don't want to tarnish it but you know he's never going to be your child." It was a painful realisation for Mark to realise and he didn't immediately know how to process it, even if he wished he had all the right things to say. There was no precedent for this situation and his lawyer brain functioned on precedent. "And normally you'd open a dialogue with Jus but you don't want him to know you have cancer."
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He did try to piece apart what Sam was saying about his predicament but he couldn't follow exactly. "Does it feel weird for you, being his Uncle and Alexis being his mum? I thought we were all cool with that situation. I know Jus definitely was. He made some jokes but I never got a sense it felt strange to him. But it does for you...? You didn't think you could talk to me about it? Sammy, I... that's it, isn't it? You're really conscious Alexis has a child but Justin is always going to just be your nephew. That's so important to you that you don't want to tarnish it but you know he's never going to be your child." It was a painful realisation for Mark to realise and he didn't immediately know how to process it, even if he wished he had all the right things to say. There was no precedent for this situation and his lawyer brain functioned on precedent. "And normally you'd open a dialogue with Jus but you don't want him to know you have cancer."