dreamlikenewyork | [ TEXT MESSAGE ] To Will @ musthavebeenlove

I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND!

OMG YAY! You guys did it!

Wait, it's Amarlie, right? It all went well?

It totally IS! And just for the record, she's amazing at it! Being a girlfriend, I mean. Not it. Even if that was pretty amazing too. But you can't tell anyone. She wants to tell Justin herself but he's not answering his phone or texts.

Aww, Lays, I'm so happy for you guys! You deserve it. So, she's figured her sexuality out or it's still a work in progress? Really? Is he having an episode? He's usually in Super Gay mode online during Pride month.

Totally punching above my weight but who the hell cares! You don't know how hard I've been crushing on her. This lockdown, I wore out three vibrators. Not even kidding. She's thinking probably dual-attraction, you know. Bisexual-homoromantic. She's sexually attracted to guys and gals but thinks she only wants to date gals. Namely, me. GO ME! Well, she only spoke to him the night before last and he was fine. He's camping with Sash, so she doesn't want to get all up in their whatever a horny gay sex symbol and his ace fiancé do in tents near campfires.

Bullshit. You're both fucking gorgeous and amazing. Match made in lesbiheaven. This is the first time I've actually wondered WTH you gals do with your vibrators. How do you wear a vibrator out?! How do you wear THREE out??? So, you're officially moved in with her and the lads now? I was just saying to Justin the other day how much we miss the squad chillouts. Who knows when we'll be able to do that again. But he was texting with me when they were camping. Hang on, I'll ask Z if he's heard from Sash.

I love you to the moon and back too, favourite lesbro ever! MWAH. That's our secret girls business and you'll never know. Then again, I know for a fact Justin had vibrators when he was dating you. I remember him using one as a lightsaber when he was high one night. Technically, yes. We're seeing if we're compatible to live together AND work together, then we'll think about making it official. I mean, it's not like we'll just be living alone. But the group-share thing sounds fun. When all the covid crap eases and the Campbell Clan come back from Aus, that is. Zeke's there? How's he doing?

We're teenage dudes, lightsabers are far more relevant than sex toys, don't you know? How's it going so far? I think the whole big share house thing sounds awesome. Probably feels strange without Justin and Sash around, though. Yep, he's here. He hasn't been doing so well. He had to have surgery and he hasn't been in the best place emotionally. He didn't tell me about any of it because he thought it would turn me off or make me think twice about dating him. But we've talked a lot now and he's feeling better than he has been but he's asleep. He's back to chemo in a couple of weeks.

Well, of course they are. You're all born with one dangling between your legs, at the ready to whip out whenever the urge hits. Well, so far, Ami and me have mostly spent the time in bed and I think the Poly Posse have been doing the same, so share house is a winner. Seriously, though, it's great. I'm ready to leap fabulously into adulthood. It's just a bonus I get to do it with a sexy goddess who likes to snuggle. Wait, surgery? He had more surgery? OMG, what happened? He didn't tell us! Turn you off... pfft. You've been smitten with him since that first day you kept him company in chemo.

Even better, when you're gay, we get TWO to play with. As soon as these restrictions lift, I'm coming to visit. I'll give you advanced warning so no one's naked. Yep, surgery. To reverse his stoma. He didn't even tell me. He's just struggling a lot with depression and hating his body, so it was a mix of not wanting to worry people, not wanting people to see him in a mess if he had complications, feeling too crap to deal with anything. It's rough going for the body to get used to having things reconnected like that, I get why he was feeling all that. Instead of fucking up like I did with Jus, this time, I went to see Zeke rather than letting it go when I felt like he was pushing me away. Best thing I could've done. I know, I have. It's just hard to get him to see that I don't need sex, it's not a game-changer. Even with Jus, there were long stretches he didn't want to be touched. I haven't had sex since I was back in Sydney and I'm all good.

You had days like that when you were sick, remember? Not in the same way because you were younger, I know, but you did. Even after when you met Justin. You were worried when you had sex if everything would work. Even if he needs to shut the rest of the world out, I know you'll be there for him. Once you've been there a little bit, he'll feel better about it too. Okay, but maybe the need isn't really what's on his mind so much as wanting to make love to his boyfriend. With Justin, it was aversion to touch that was the issue. Zeke probably really wants it. Is he up to finding other ways?

[ TEXT MESSAGE ] To Will @ musthavebeenlove

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