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He's doing pretty well, all things considered. Extremely tired. I went back to visit him last night and slept the whole time. I called a little while to check how he was and he was still sleeping. But that's okay, he needs it. He's healing.

Oh my fucking god, I just heard what happened! You're both alive? Are you sure? Shit, tell me everything. I'm a horrible friend!

Z, dude. You're having chemo. You're not a horrible friend.

I know, but you're my best friend. Don't cockblock me because I'm a sick person. I'm not too sick to care and worry.

You and Jus are seriously two peas in a pod right now. It's okay, chill a little. It was a whole shit hitting the fan epically and now it's settling scenario. Want me to come visit? How you holding up? I sent you a billion messages.

We are? So, what actually happened? I don't even know if I got the full story. I'm okay. Chemo's kinda kicking my ass, but you know how it is. I got them all but I knew you were tied up. Where are you?

He's all thinking he smells like a sick person. The full story is Jus' guts got all messed up from his meds and it caused a blockage. They operated to sort it. And there's a whole other bunch of stuff he's not really ready to have out there yet, but he's doing okay. How's things with Will? I'm at Mom and Dad's. The hospital's going to call when Jus wakes up. You at the farm?

It's true, hospital makes you smell like a sick person. Aw, man. I feel for him. Abdo surgery is the pits. It hurts to laugh, cry, cough, shit, fart. Then they tell you that you can't do anything until you do fart, and suddenly it's like you're training for an Olympic gold medal in flatulence but epically failing. Did the op go okay? Still at the chemo clinic, then I'm going to Will's again.

That all sounds crappy. Uh, pardon the pun. Wait, are you and Will dating? You know, I'm not doing anything right now. I can come keep you company if you want, Z.

You want a chemo date, Cas? Seriously, it's as abysmal as it sounds. With a side order of probably seeing me barf.

Yes, I do, and bitch, I love you. I don't care if you're sick. That's what we're here for, and we all love you. We can watch a movie and you can give me advice. Then I'll force you to tell me about Will after I butter you up.

You need to listen to her, mate. She's one of the best fag hags in the business and learned from fabulous experts. I don't think Jus has realised these downsides he's in for yet, but I anticipate a lot of LOLZ considering he is surrounded by dudes. The op went... well, eventually okay. There were some complications. It looks like the ketamine is working, though. He said he can feel it working.

So, Sash or anyone less new around here than me... I have a question that is going to be epic basic, but humour me. I just caught up on watching Shameless, and Ian is bipolar. They show him having episodes. Is that accurate to what it's like for Justin? Tell me to fuck off if it's all artistic licence and shit.

Also, hey guys!

They actually didn't do too bad portraying a form of bipolar. Just not Justin's type. Ian has distinct ups, then downs, both which last out as individual episodes. Justin's BPD is cyclic. He can be like that, or he can be up and down in rapid succession, sometimes multiple times a day. Sometimes manic/depressed at the same time, which people often don't realise can happen. His triggers are obviously different to Ian too. But general behaviour, can be similar. If he's depressed, he might not get out of bed for days or eat or want to even do things like shower or change clothes. If he's manic, he's a bit like a cat on a hot tin roof, so to speak. Or he can snappy, impatient, or restless. He'll keep going, and going, and going until he keels over. He's not really as irritable or sullen as Ian is. Don't worry, though, Tor. Just ask these guys, you can tell when he's not well and you just gauge it.

Hey, honey. Please don't tell me you were binging Shameless alone. But Sash is right, Justin's BPD is signature to him and it doesn't take long adapting to it. He doesn't mind you asking questions, but he can't always verbalise what's in his head. No matter how sick he is, he doesn't really morph into an asshole or anything. Just take him as he comes if he's agitated. He'll usually disengage to diffuse if he's manic. Don't take offence at it.

ILU, Cas. Come brighten my shitty chemo sessions all you want, especially if bringing hugs. Hey, Tor! How's it hanging, bud?

Z-man! Screw me, how are you? I heard you're not doing too well. I just don't want to be that basic friend who is clueless about everything. Sash said we could all maybe chill together when Justin's feeling better.

I just want to jump in here and say, I know there's a whole lot of, well, stuff going on in our squad. Not just what's going on with Jus and with Z hitting the chemo again. I think we epically need a catch-up. I want to catch up with everyone, and I know Jus will too. Maybe we can go to Shan's cabin at the lake, or the beach house again like we did last summer. Unless anyone else has any ideas. Just, obviously nothing crazy. Z's down for the count when he's having treatment and Jus is going to be getting over surgery. So, ideas!

Well, dude, there's always my folks' lakehouse in Vermont. It's where Andi wanted to spend her last days. We haven't really been able to be back there since she died, but you know that place is huge. Everyone would fit, and it's so beautiful up there at this time of year.

Hey, I remember that place. We went there for Spring Break the year I was first diagnosed. Andi invited me about 3 days after we met, saying I'd need a holiday after the first round of chemo. Fuck, was she right. It was epic.

Shit, I almost forgot about it. It's where she always said she wanted her last days to be, but they came too soon. Jus would actually love it up there. He loves being near the water and peace. You'd be okay being there, Tor? It's a big thing to face without her. I don't even know how I'll deal, tbh.

It'll be really weird, but I think she'd want it. Just hard to picture it without her.

But it's an epic place. Making new memories is always awesome too. Especially when you're being reminded how short life can be.

We could have a memorial for her there. Something she loved doing when she was there.

That would be amazing.

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