Belt's gone, replaced with a rhinestone silk scarf. Which meant they had to change my trousers too to something that could stay up without a belt. Sash couldn't cope with the belt after he had the nightmare. I had to come clean to Caden about what I nearly did. He doesn't get why he feels stuff. It freaks him out, but there's explanation for it. It just is what it is. It happened when we were in Boston to visit Andi. I think maybe people who die too soon aren't ready to be just gone for good. Me? You want me? Really?