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[nothingelsematters]

When your baby girl has screamed her way through the week because of teething and still traumatised, you're sleep deprived and cause a domestic over running out of toilet paper, and you drop your phone in the toilet, what is there left to do? Have a smoke and fuck, and laugh about how much of a wanker you are.

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[letyourcolorsburst]

I still love you, even if you had a complete meltdown about needing to use baby wipes.

[nothingelsematters]

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. Why didn't you snatch that smoke out of my hand and lecture me about my heart?

[letyourcolorsburst]

Because you needed it. You went cold turkey. That's what is wrong. It's causing more stress than not.

[nothingelsematters]

I'm worried about Hols. She hasn't slept through the night since what happened with Ange. So, this is why you were all forceful and demanded to top.

[letyourcolorsburst]

I know, baby. We'll make that appointment for her. Fuck yes, it is. You're not supposed to be doing anything strenuous. You're supposed to mostly be on bed rest.

[nothingelsematters]

I just don't want it to get too far and screw with her development and functioning. Do you think Ange would be okay to have her visit? I fucked up and turned into a bitch.

[letyourcolorsburst]

It won't get to that point. She's just been through a lot. Not even adults cope with shit without some struggles. She just doesn't understand what's happened. I think she would be fine to visit. She's struggling, but she still loves Holly. No, you didn't. You're just sleep deprived, nicotine deprived, exhausted and cranky.

[nothingelsematters]

You're talking to the dude who keeled over and had a heart attack when shit got too much. I just wanted to protect her from everything and it's really fucking hard to learn I can't always. I'll drop in and see her. Is that your kind way of saying I'm a shitty bitch right now?

[letyourcolorsburst]

You're talking like you had control over it. Stop that. You have survived a hell of a lot, gorgeous. It was just one thing too much. Yes, but she saved Ange's life and Zephyr's life. We can't forget that. No, you won't. I will. You'll stay in bed and rest. Maybe a little, but I still love you when you're a shitty bitch.

[thankfuckforlife]

You need sleep and rest, big bro. Want us to take her for the night so you and Lew can get a breather?

[nothingelsematters]

I know, I just lost my shit. You're not working?

[thankfuckforlife]

No wonder. You're still recovering from a heart attack, even if it wasn't a classic kind. Nope. Three days off now. We'd love to have her.

[nothingelsematters]

Things that also make me shitty: that. I have some much to fucking do. Only if you're okay with it. We're okay, it's just me on a short fuse.

[thankfuckforlife]

100% okay with it. We love having her. Do I need to talk to you about getting some counselling? You haven't mentioned your mom's death to me at all. Do you talk about it to Lewis?