[ TEXT MESSAGE ] To Shannon and Garrett

[privateinvestigations]

Kip's got something he needs to talk to you about. He's not up to telling you both separately. But I don't want anyone racing over here on a white knight horse and overwhelming him. Just leave it until later tonight, after dinner. Leave the shining armour at the fucking door with the positive platitudes. Accept you ain't gonna be able to fix shit for him before you get here.

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[wordsofwisdom]

I know better than most none of that shit works. What time? I'll be there. How is he?

[privateinvestigations]

Good lad. Make it about 7 ish. You got a lift okay, bud? Not too good at the moment. He's dealing with a lot.

[wordsofwisdom]

Yeah, I'll get Niko to bring me. He's not going to tell me he's dying, is he?

[privateinvestigations]

Nope. You don't have to worry about that.

[texasbadboy]

I'll be there. I know I can't make none of this shit better... I'm learning that more every damn day. But I'll be there for him.

[privateinvestigations]

Don't keep telling him that. That'll shit him too. He's used to fucking going it alone, that ain't gonna suddenly change.

[texasbadboy]

I don't want to turn his whole world upside down. He's got enough of that going on. I care about him. I just wanna do the right thing by him, whatever that is.

[privateinvestigations]

When he figures out what that is, he might let you know. Then again, he might not. Hard to say how he's gonna be just yet. He might tell you to go fuck yourself. In which case, you gotta go fuck yourself. Then you come back later and see how he's doing. If the does that 10 times, you come back fucking 11 times.

[texasbadboy]

I ain't giving up on him, dude. No matter how many times he tells me to go fuck myself. I ain't never really cared about somebody like I do him before. I don't really know what any of it's supposed to mean, but I know it means I don't give up on him, no matter how hard shit gets. Was that how it was when your husband was hurt?

[privateinvestigations]

If you don't know what it means, that probably means it means fuck all. Too much dumbshit in this world where people try to insert false meaning into shit, give it labels, call it a fucking buzzard when it's really a duck. Not everything has fucking meaning. Sometimes, shit just happens. Grow balls, deal with it. Half the shit in this world is caused by two different opinions trying to force their "meaning" onto something that doesn't fucking need any. Put down the self-help guides and inspirational quotes, face life for what it is or you'll miss the value in it when you're too busy reblogging fake shit that no one gives a fuck about. You get your head around this, you'll be more help to him. No, it fucking wasn't. He was nearly murdered. Call a fucking spade a spade, kid. He nearly dropped dead, modern medicine saved him. I'm only still here because he gave me a second chance after I fucked up trying to make sense of something senseless. Meaningless.

[texasbadboy]

I just know that I care about him, and I want him around. I wanna be there for him when he needs me, but I also wanna learn to be the sort of person who understands him. Because Kip ain't the sort that always wants people around him. He'll tell you loud as shit that he feels that way, too. I don't want to force anything. I just want it to be what it is, and grow the way it's supposed to. Natural. Not forced. I tried making shit forced, and he wasn't having any of it. So... you're saying there's a lot of shit that has no meaning, and you just have to go with it to figure out how it goes... because it's life, and sometimes life doesn't have a meaning behind everything? It just is what it is?

[privateinvestigations]

No, he ain't. And no matter how much you wanna play nursemaid, you gotta let him call the shots and don't push him. He's going through something you're never gonna be able to fully understand. Yeah, that's exactly what I'm fucking saying. World is full of bastards getting all offended and on their fucking high horses about shit they think they're right about, when really, it ain't their place to be telling someone else what should or shouldn't have fucking meaning. Or why they should or shouldn't spend fucking time on it. More folk just get the fuck on with life and respect that no fucker on this planet is the same as them, the world would be healthier. Instead, you got the fucking internet, where everyone is a fucking expert on their own bandwagons and expect everyone to fall into line behind it and be beaten into submission. Life doesn't fucking work like that, it just shits people off because you got no idea what shoes they walk in or why. Ride your own fucking horses and let everyone else ride theirs.