When Nick started speaking, Jeff took his cup of tea, taking a few slow sips. It was still hot, but a really nice tea, and he always found tea to be a comforting thing. Not to mention, lower caffeine than coffee, which was a good thing given that too much caffeine could fuck Jeff up and leave him incapacitated with a migraine. He had those mostly under control, largely due to the fact that he'd cut back on things like caffeine and a few other things in his diet that tended to trigger migraines in a serious sort of way. He didn't want to rush this conversation, because it was far too important to him to risk fucking it up. He cared way too much about the outcome here to just keep rushing to the next stupid decision as he'd done before. Nick was a gorgeous guy, and this mattered way too much to him to ruin things anymore than he already had.

"I do care what you want," Jeff said honestly. "Again, I haven't exactly done the most amazing job at showing it, but your wants and needs do matter to me. I wish we'd been able to talk about them more before I fucked things up for us. I know that wishing for things that I don't have really doesn't make sense at this point, and I should probably just step aside and let the whole thing go. But I want to give you what you want and be what you need. And I'm sorry I didn't ask more about that before. The fact is, after everything that's happened, I may very well be nothing at all that you want. And if that's the case, that's okay. I can't fight you on that, and I don't want to, either. I know I've hurt you and pissed you off, and I don't want to keep adding to that. I'm sure you've had more than enough. You're a gorgeous person, Nick. And I want to get to know that gorgeous person better... including what you want and need." Maybe it was a last ditch effort, and maybe it was too little too late, but Jeff needed to at least try here.