“Oh, jeez,” Jeff joked. “Is the main course the part where I sleep with the fishes in a pair of cement shoes? Or is putting the heads of dead animals in people’s beds more your style?” His blue eyes shone with humor, though the topic of conversation was eventually going to have to turn to a place where things were a lot more serious. The joking was nice, though. It lightened the mood, and honestly? It reminded Jeff of how things had felt when he and Nick had first spoken to each other. It was nice, and kind of relaxing, and Jeff couldn’t help but appreciate it for what it was. And maybe, that in itself, was a reminder of why it was so important to him that he didn’t fuck it up this time. He didn’t want to. It was the last thing he wanted to do. Nick was a special person, and the last thing he wanted was to lose him due to being a fucking loser.
“I’m sure he’s overwhelmed with the awesome of landing an audition for Joffrey. He’s really young, too, right? I hope he’s really proud of himself… if he’s even taken time to be proud of himself instead of just freaking out about his audition piece. That’s probably what I’d be doing.” He had to smile over at Harry, sleeping soundly on the couch. “Poor kid’s beat, huh?” But then the conversation was turning back to the reason for their being here, and Jeff knew it was time to face facts. If he let this drag out any longer, he was going to lose someone that he really didn’t want to lose, and he was determined not to let that happen. Not this time. “I understand that,” Jeff said. “I want you to know that I get it. I haven’t really been myself lately, and that’s not an excuse or anything. That’s just sort of the truth. Even my best friend was giving me major WTFage, because I’ve never been like this before. I really don’t know why it is, but I’ve gotten back on point with him, and I want more than anything to get things back on point with you, too. I know I haven’t done much to show that I can function in a relationship. I have in the past, and I can again. Granted, I know I didn’t do much to prove it. But I can assure you that I won’t let another chance pass me by without showing you the care and respect that anyone should be showing their boyfriend. I like you. A lot. And I want a relationship where you can feel that in the way that I treat you. I’m sorry that I didn’t show you that before. I won’t let you ever feel unwanted again. I promise you that."
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“I’m sure he’s overwhelmed with the awesome of landing an audition for Joffrey. He’s really young, too, right? I hope he’s really proud of himself… if he’s even taken time to be proud of himself instead of just freaking out about his audition piece. That’s probably what I’d be doing.” He had to smile over at Harry, sleeping soundly on the couch. “Poor kid’s beat, huh?” But then the conversation was turning back to the reason for their being here, and Jeff knew it was time to face facts. If he let this drag out any longer, he was going to lose someone that he really didn’t want to lose, and he was determined not to let that happen. Not this time. “I understand that,” Jeff said. “I want you to know that I get it. I haven’t really been myself lately, and that’s not an excuse or anything. That’s just sort of the truth. Even my best friend was giving me major WTFage, because I’ve never been like this before. I really don’t know why it is, but I’ve gotten back on point with him, and I want more than anything to get things back on point with you, too. I know I haven’t done much to show that I can function in a relationship. I have in the past, and I can again. Granted, I know I didn’t do much to prove it. But I can assure you that I won’t let another chance pass me by without showing you the care and respect that anyone should be showing their boyfriend. I like you. A lot. And I want a relationship where you can feel that in the way that I treat you. I’m sorry that I didn’t show you that before. I won’t let you ever feel unwanted again. I promise you that."