dreamlikenewyork | [TEXT TO Ali Sullivan]

What has he done?

He's sick. Miserably sick. I'm trying to beat him into submission... verbally, of course... and he's not having a bar of it. Swears he's not really sick, and he'll be fine soon. He has "things" to do. And now I've been called in to work. So... I guess what I'm asking is if you can Marksit for me for a couple of hours while I see what's going on at the office?

He's a stubborn arseholeburger. Being sick is a weakness to him. He's fine with anyone else being sick, but when it's him, he'll fight you to the end. He has to be on death's door not to go to work. Sure, I can come over. I can't promise his balls won't be shoved in one of his orifices, though.

Yes, he is. He doesn't realize I'm stubborn, too. I want to smack him, but I can't exactly do that. Spousal abuse isn't a good thing for my public image. And the fact that his balls are under threat just by your presence is precisely why you were the first person I thought to contact.

Not when married to an attorney, honey. He'll keep telling you he's fine. He actually passed out in a case conference one because he was insistent he was fine when he had pneumonia one year. Where's Justin? Am I getting a two-for-one package?

I swear to god, I'm going to handcuff him to the bed and not even in a sexy way. If you don't mind? Justin's worried he's made his dad sick. I think he'll stick close to Mark today, so there's that at least.

That could get messy. Trust me, I've contemplated it myself in the past. I tried taking all the phones, laptops, everything away. First time I let him near the bathroom, he was in his office reading casenotes in his underwear. Poor wee soul. It hurts that Mark never knew he existed. And this coming from a bitch who nearly stopped him having involvement in his daughter's life.

I've married the only person out there that's more of a workaholic than me and my brother put together. I know. It breaks my heart. That and the fact that everybody just thought he was bad when he was really ill and needed help. Hey, in your defense, a lot of mothers would've felt the same way.

It was a breath of fresh air when I got Andy and he's an obedient cuddlebug when he's sick. But Mark is a stubborn bitch. Plus, he gets really clever in his tactics, so be warned. It was the same with Mark. I didn't know he was drinking. I just thought he was disowned Sunshine. Especially when he went back home to Australia.

Fuck me dead, he's ridiculous. He thinks I'm leaving him home alone with Justin. Silly boy. I'm just glad that he's not drinking anymore... With the exception of our drunk night in Vegas. That one kind of came out okay.

If Justin was okay himself, that might be plausible but one came from the other and they could be dangerous in cahoots. Hey, I can't judge for that. Andy had one slip in five years and knocked me up.

Not even close to something that's going to happen today. LOL. Yeah, thank fuck Marky Mark didn't manage that, too. I would've castrated him.

How's Justin doing? After the other night, I mean. I was going to try to chat to him at the bar, but the lad did a runner as soon as he could. Praise the almighty higher powers that Justin likes dick.

He's taking his meds again, which is a major plus, and he's added his friends back on Facebook. He does seem to slip into thinking everything bad is his fault, though. But baby steps. We can't give him a pill and him suddenly be magically cured. It's at least a start. Oh, god, yes. Thank fucking fuck.

He stopped? The poor kid. No, those things can take ages to work. They wanted to prescribe me when I was having my troubles, but I was breastfeeding. How are you handling it all. It's a lot to take on.

Yeah, he was dropping doses on purpose. I swear, you're supermom sometimes, Ali. I think I'm handling as well as it can be handled. Sometimes I'm at a total loss, but I want to be here for them, no matter what it takes.

He probably thought it would make him feel better. Oh god, no. I'm no supermum. I'm an atrocious pregnant person, and I lost count of the tantrums I threw when things weren't working how everyone was telling me they should. Well, you can be safe in the knowledge that Mark is at a total loss too. You're in it together.

It made him so sick before, but they cut the dosage down, and then he decided to cut it more himself. You're just a great mom just the same, and Jamie's really lucky to have you. I couldn't do this without Mark. Just knowing someone's there who has your back helps a lot.

It shows you how much of a kid he still really is, though. He's probably had to think he has to grow up way too fast just to protect himself, but he's so young, innocent and scared inside. Poor wess lass got my bitchy streak, though. Sometimes, she has more sass than I do, but then, at least I know with me as her mum, she won't take shit from arseholes when she gets older. If they try, I'll slam their balls in a sewer grate. It does, but with Mark, he's the one who thinks he has to be the caregiver. It's why he flips out when he can't protect the people he loves. He starts wanting to drink again.

It really just makes me want to make time slow down for him a bit so he gets to experience what it's like to be a normal kid instead of always feeling like he has to be an adult now. Nothing wrong with a bitchy streak. I have one myself, and grew up side by side with a sassy gay bitch of queenly proportions. That he definitely does, and I'm trying to get it through to him that it's okay to let other people take care of you, too. He told me the other day that he really wanted a drink when Justin OD'd again.

Even if you could, he probably wouldn't know what to do with the time. Getting him to interact more with people his age will be good. Ones who aren't going to judge him for his illness. Plus, let him around James and Mark long enough, the boyish streak will rub off. I think the biggest difference between you and I is that I should have been born a guy. I always liked being dirty, it's why I got into Forensics. Max, my little brother, he's precious. He hates bugs or getting too dirty and screams like a girl. The alcohol thing is tough. Andy still gets cravings. He was drinking again when... well, we lost a baby, and it was really tough. He says it's a constant battle.

Andy's cousin Will seems to really have gotten through to him on some level, and it's special to see. Justin needs friends like that who listen to him and, like you said, don't judge him for being sick. Now, that's true. I'm as girly as they come, but I just have a bitch streak and a half. LOL. I've heard a bit about Max from Austin Shaw. He sounds like a sweetie. I wonder sometimes if they'll ever get to a point where they don't crave it, but in the end, it says a lot for them that they're still fighting to keep from giving in to the cravings.

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