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[ TEXT MESSAGE ] To Beau

Hey, hon. Are you okay? You can ignore this is you want.

You know, other than Liam, you're the first person who has asked me that. Everyone else has gone with "What happened with Austin?"

I don't know Austin. I'm worried about you, though.

I'm okay. I'm back at work today. Temporarily with Renal while Tara's out of action as my supervisor. Which is okay, because we have Oncology and Renal crossovers with patients with co-morbidities.

Do you want to get lunch together? Purely as friends, I promise. I just want to apologise for what happened. I know you're not really okay.

Okay, sure. If I get lunch, that is. Don't have much of an appetite. You have nothing to apologise for. It's not like you forced me into it.

Come on, hon. No matter how much your heart is breaking, you need to eat. You know you do. They've got Caesar Salad on the menu in the cafeteria today. I know it's one of your favourites. Maybe not, but you regret it and that's enough for me.

I can't believe you even remember shit like that. See, that takes time. Learning time, sinking in time. That's not shit you just know without knowing someone. I just shouldn't have done it, that's all. It's not me.

So, you broke up with your boyfriend because he didn't know you? Beau, hon, no one really knows you because you do things different every time. That's one of the best parts about you. Knowing you like Caesar Salads and the only thing you'll touch when you have the flu is lime jello and honey tea is just something that takes time to hone.

Something like that. You couldn't handle it. Maybe no one can. I'm probably better off single.

That's bullshit, B. There's someone out there who isn't going to care that you're you, or care how you go about your life. I know what this is about, you know. You fear looking too far into the future. Maybe this is all because Austin is exactly what I just said.