Dude, there is something else you need to know. But you don't need to feel like it's a reason to cut your trip short either, because there's so much shit connected to it right now, there's nothing you can do. I'm the lucky one. Being gay is the easy part. Finding your mate is something that doesn't make sense until you're holding them and something in your gut, or your heart, or your soul suddenly goes 'Don't let go'.