Billy leaned over and softly kissed Ajay's forehead and stroked his cheek tenderly. "You're not a freak to me. I didn't come into this blindsided, lovely. I came in knowing something was really wrong for you and I still wanted to be close to you. I don't want or need to give you positive platitudes to make my feelings be less awkward. I have no awkward feelings around you. None. Not even a little. I have a lot of worry and I feel scared for you a lot of the time. I watch you in pain and upset, and I wish I knew a way to be able to stop that and help you feel better. But then, I know I can do some little things to help that, and hold you through it, but I can't throw suggestions at you that will be miracle fixes. You won't lose me."

He rested his forehead against Ajay's holding him very gently and just sitting there with him in the quiet room listening to the sound of his soft tears. He gave him a very soft, very brief kiss to his lips and just kept holding him. "I need you to know that I don't do any of that because of some sense of obligation to you. I just do it. I do it because it's natural to want to. I want to take care of you, lovely. I want to be the one to come wrap my arms around you when you're in pain and upset. I ask you how you are because I want and need to know. I call you up because I'm thinking about you. You're on my mind all the time. When I'm not with you, I'm thinking about coming home to you. I can't just step back from that. You're amazing. You're so special to me. I need you, Ajay. I need you like you need me."