He was really good. He had Toby over and they were playing video games and laughing a lot. He was actually talking about it being cool getting to go back to school with Toby. Then this just hit. Waiting in the ER while they pump his stomach... again. They said he'll be okay, because it was only a few minutes after that I realised he wasn't in his room. I panicked and made him throw up, which they said was a good thing. I'm not strong enough for this, Sammy. I thought I was doing okay, but I seriously fucked up.