Honey, people have fucked up in the face of a lot less than nearly watching your husband die. How were you to know it was depression that needed treatment and not just post-remission malaise of a body that had been through the wringer for many months? We can al look at our mistakes in hindsight and see what we should or shouldn't have done. It takes more courage to look back and see why we made them in the first place to know how not to make them again. You're doing that. You both are. You're back to figuring things out together, like you did so well before your lost your footing. That's exactly what those dreams are. Just don't feel you have to hide them from him. He will understand why you're having them. He has been having something similar since Liam was raped. Thank you, honey. Lachie and I will never stop fighting for him.