"I've got nothing against a bit of domestic comfort. There'd be a problem if I was a nurse and was precious about bodily functions, especially when someone's not feeling well. You can try sitting up slowly first and then I'll help you to the bathroom. But only when you're ready. Just give me the word when you are. Until then, I'm totally still spooning you." Jude ran his fingers through Winston's curly hair and nuzzled his nose to his shoulder. Just as Reecy predicted, Winston didn't hesitate on anything when Jude admitted he was having some sort of insecure feelings, even going so far as to immediately offer routes out, if Jude wanted them. "None of that. Not even close. It's not about doubts, it's just more, I think, lack of faith in myself to get things right this time around. Which even sounds stupid saying it out loud because I don't think I'm so dense that I can't correct the mistakes I made in the past. Maybe just scared I won't see the signs again if I am. So, I feel ultra-conscious of needing to watch for it the whole time. At the same time, I don't want to go into this like I'm just waiting for something to go wrong. The problem is, I've never really had a successful relationship. That's where the insecurity is coming from. Reecy was the closest I came but before that, I was scared of commitment so I didn't think I wanted it. Now I do, more than anything. Have you always known what you wanted out of relationships? You feel like one of those naturals at it."