"Not quite the boozy trainwreck I was when I got here. Fabulous electrolytes, darling." Austin pulled himself back up onto the bed and gave Beau a faint wry smile. "I remember those days, when you were on PEG feeding because you were so sick. It felt like you were never going to eat again and I could never quite believe the doctors when they said that was enough for you. Now, of course, I know Tara is the best Oncologist basically in the universe and she's married to the best Hematologist, so they helped let you stick around for awhile longer. Hopefully until you're at least, like, ninety-eight, if there's any Powers That Be up there taking requests. All that fear of the unknown and no way to give accurate answers, it takes its toll. You try to stay positive and keep hope, but it's not always possible. The bad days... the worst days, it doesn't even feel like you have the strength to keep breathing yourself. All I wanted to do was take your pain away. All I did was cause you more."