"I'm saying that..." Trey paused, trying to sort through what he was thinking and what he needed to say. What he knew was that he didn't need to say anything at all to his twin. Kyan wouldn't judge him for it. He wasn't judging him now. He was just trying to help navigate him to do the right thing, which had always been one of Kyan's most beautiful traits. He got that off their mom. "I think Brendan wants to move back to London. That's not why this happened. He's been spending a lot of time with the people he grew up with and I think he misses them. I think if I was in his shoes, I'd want to move back. Knowing all this has just compounded everything, I think. Being with Ari, I felt this thrill. That whole live in the moment spontaneous sex thing. Bren and I don't have that anymore. It's like we've got to book an appointment. I think that's going to get worse now I'm a partner and overseeing Justin's affairs. When I accepted the job, I really just thought I'd be like a... an attorney beard? On paper, I'd be Justin's attorney for his professional affairs but in reality, Mark will still be the heart of the operation. But he has given me so much trust and respect, Ky. I'm not a beard at all, he is literally trusting me one of two most precious things to him in the world. He trusts me to care for Justin. I've found that's an overwhelmingly powerful thing. This is everything Mom believed I'd be one day and it's happening. This is the closest I've felt to her in a long time."