You know Ash and I will be there every step of the way with you, unconditionally. But no way will we keep fucking together without you. That was the thing, babe. I still appreciated the connection of sex back then, even if I couldn't come. I've been taking more OTC painkillers, which I don't want to do. I think I might need the ketamine infusion. But before you ask, sex isn't making the pain worse. It's not like I'm a fucking porn star, even if some chasers out there wish I was.