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Layla Lily Morton ([personal profile] friendsforever) wrote in [community profile] dreamlikenewyork2016-12-16 09:05 pm
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[ TEXT MESSAGE ] To Will @ [personal profile] valuetosurvival

I know you don't want to talk to me, or anyone. Whatever. Just so you know, right this minute, Justin is warming at his rehearsal singing I Will Always Love You. I can legit soundbite him right now. So you better get your shit together and not lose him out of your life completely, whether you date him or not. You shit on the people who love you, you're going to turn into a miserable dick for the rest of your life that no one wants to be around because you weren't there for them when it mattered. Grow some balls, deal with your shit, and get your crap together like everyone else has to do.
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-16 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't want to be a miserable dick. He's singing that? I don't think it has anything to do with me, since I'm pretty sure he's already moved on to someone else, and I don't know if I can watch him being in love with someone else so soon. How am I supposed to do that, Layla?
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-16 01:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Pfft. Okay, bye. Have a good life without us.
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-16 01:10 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not saying I don't want to talk to you or anyone else. I'm not even saying I don't want to talk to Justin. Fuck me, I want to talk to him every day. Do you have any idea how much I miss him? How much I miss everything being the way it's supposed to be?
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-16 01:13 pm (UTC)(link)
No, because you don't fucking talk to me, asshole. Or him, apparently. It's not going back because you threw it away, Will. You. Threw. It. Away. You can continue being a miserable wanker because of it, or you can learn from it and go back to being the nice person who deserves nice friends.
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-16 01:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm angry and hurt, and it's all my fucking fault and I get that. But Justin was the One for me. I'm never going to be able to love anyone else the way I loved him. He was my first everything, and now there's somebody else getting to love him instead. Again, my fault. I miss you, Layla. I'm sorry that I've sucked as a friend lately.
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-16 01:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, no. He wasn't the One for you. Because Ones don't ditch each other when shit gets tough. Ones don't even think about doing that. He's growing up. When are you going to do the same?
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-16 01:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I want to do it now. I was doing everything right for so long. I slipped up at the wrong time. I know how to do things the right way, which maybe just makes it worse. I can't make excused because there aren't any. I want to fix what I did, but I can't if Justin's got a new boyfriend. I can be his friend, but I don't know if I can right away, because I fucking miss him so much that I can't sleep at night, and I feel like a wanker all the time for letting him go.
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-16 01:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Will, this wasn't just 'slipping up'. You have to stop that shit. You're minimising what happened and why. You can fix being a dick. That might be a good start, but you have to accept he's moved on to what he needs because you weren't being it. I can't believe I have to have this conversation with a CANCER survivor.
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-16 01:57 pm (UTC)(link)
I wanted to be everything he needed, but I ended up being nothing he needed. You're right. I failed him. I utterly failed him because I was caught up in everything but the most important things at the most important times. I got my priorities out of whack again. I own that.
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-16 02:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Did you really want that? Or did you just want the idea of him?
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-16 02:05 pm (UTC)(link)
I wanted him, Layla. The good and the bad. I loved HIM, not the idea of him.
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-16 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Just not the parts that were too hard to fit into your busy schedule. You're such a different person now. I can barely remember why we were best friends.
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-17 02:36 am (UTC)(link)
I'm still me... Just a sad and confused me. Layla, I know what I did. I know that there's no excuse or anything even close to an excuse that lets me off the hook for it. I hope we're still best friends, or at least will be again at some point.
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-17 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
Well, join the club. How am I supposed to be your best friend when I can barely recognise you anymore?
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-17 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
Give me a chance to help you recognize me again.
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-17 02:42 am (UTC)(link)
I don't have to give you it, you just have to get to doing it.
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-17 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
Then we need to get together. ASAP. And really catch up.
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-17 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
I guess we do, yeah.
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[personal profile] valuetosurvival 2016-12-18 05:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I miss you, Lay. Can I see you now?
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[personal profile] friendsforever 2016-12-19 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
If you want to.
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